Jude the Obscure by Thomas Hardy

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[Part First] [21] miles off, such a vehicle proving of quite sufficient size for the
[Part First] [24] by the master, in addition to the packing-case of books, was a
[Part First] [28] purchased article had been a perpetual trouble to him ever since in
[Part First] [31] The rector had gone away for the day, being a man who disliked the
[Part First] [43] A little boy of eleven, who had been thoughtfully assisting in the
[Part First] [45] spoke up, blushing at the sound of his own voice: "Aunt have got a
[Part First] [47] found a place to settle in, sir."
[Part First] [49] "A proper good notion," said the blacksmith.
[Part First] [51] It was decided that a deputation should wait on the boy's aunt--an
[Part First] [67] Phillotson had bestowed on him as a parting gift, and admitted that
[Part First] [74] "Ah--that would be a long story. You wouldn't understand my reasons,
[Part First] [79] "Well--don't speak of this everywhere. You know what a university
[Part First] [80] is, and a university degree? It is the necessary hallmark of a man
[Part First] [82] a university graduate, and then to be ordained. By going to live at
[Part First] [85] spot will afford me a better chance of carrying it out than I should
[Part First] [92] removing it; and the schoolmaster gave a final glance round.
[Part First] [99] "Be a good boy, remember; and be kind to animals and birds, and read
[Part First] [106] his patron and teacher in the loading. There was a quiver in his lip
[Part First] [109] his face wearing the fixity of a thoughtful child's who has felt the
[Part First] [112] position appeared as a long circular perspective ending in a shining
[Part First] [113] disk of quivering water at a distance of a hundred feet down.
[Part First] [114] There was a lining of green moss near the top, and nearer still the
[Part First] [117] He said to himself, in the melodramatic tones of a whimsical boy,
[Part First] [118] that the schoolmaster had drawn at that well scores of times on a
[Part First] [121] do now, and when he rested a bit before carrying the buckets home!
[Part First] [122] But he was too clever to bide here any longer--a small sleepy place
[Part First] [125] A tear rolled from his eye into the depths of the well. The morning
[Part First] [126] was a little foggy, and the boy's breathing unfurled itself as
[Part First] [127] a thicker fog upon the still and heavy air. His thoughts were
[Part First] [128] interrupted by a sudden outcry:
[Part First] [133] garden gate of a green-thatched cottage not far off. The boy quickly
[Part First] [134] waved a signal of assent, drew the water with what was a great effort
[Part First] [136] own pair of smaller ones, and pausing a moment for breath, started
[Part First] [151] a tall new building of modern Gothic design, unfamiliar to English
[Part First] [152] eyes, had been erected on a new piece of ground by a certain
[Part First] [154] in a day. The site whereon so long had stood the ancient temple to
[Part First] [167] was a little rectangular piece of blue board, on which was painted
[Part First] [170] five bottles of sweets, and three buns on a plate of the willow
[Part First] [179] "And who's he?" asked one, comparatively a stranger, when the boy
[Part First] [183] you was last this way." The old inhabitant who answered was a tall,
[Part First] [185] gave a phrase of her conversation to each auditor in turn. "He come
[Part First] [186] from Mellstock, down in South Wessex, about a year ago--worse luck
[Part First] [189] know, Caroline" (turning to the left). "It would ha' been a blessing
[Part First] [193] penny he can. Just now he's a-scaring of birds for Farmer Troutham.
[Part First] [198] The local washerwoman replied that it was perhaps a very good plan of
[Part First] [204] take 'ee to Christminster wi' un, and make a scholar of 'ee," she
[Part First] [205] continued, in frowning pleasantry. "I'm sure he couldn't ha' took a
[Part First] [210] husband, after they were married, didn' get a house of their own for
[Part First] [214] a child o' my own, Belinda, till the split come! Ah, that a little
[Part First] [220] from the garden by getting over the hedge at the back he pursued a
[Part First] [221] path northward, till he came to a wide and lonely depression in the
[Part First] [222] general level of the upland, which was sown as a corn-field. This
[Part First] [229] uniformity of the scene were a rick of last year's produce standing
[Part First] [237] a piece of new corduroy, lending a meanly utilitarian air to the
[Part First] [247] field from a distant plantation girls had given themselves to lovers
[Part First] [249] and in that ancient cornfield many a man had made love-promises to
[Part First] [250] a woman at whose voice he had trembled by the next seed-time after
[Part First] [252] the rooks around him considered. For them it was a lonely place,
[Part First] [253] possessing, in the one view, only the quality of a work-ground, and
[Part First] [254] in the other that of a granary good to feed in.
[Part First] [260] warily, and descending to feed at a more respectful distance.
[Part First] [264] himself, to be living in a world which did not want them. Why should
[Part First] [273] to let you have some. Eat, then my dear little birdies, and make a
[Part First] [277] enjoyed their appetite. A magic thread of fellow-feeling united his
[Part First] [281] His clacker he had by this time thrown away from him, as being a mean
[Part First] [283] as their friend. All at once he became conscious of a smart blow
[Part First] [284] upon his buttocks, followed by a loud clack, which announced to his
[Part First] [293] 'Eat, dear birdies,' again in a hurry! And you've been idling at the
[Part First] [295] how you earn your sixpence a day for keeping the rooks off my corn!"
[Part First] [304] helpless under the centrifugal tendency of his person as a hooked
[Part First] [307] amazing circular race. "I--I sir--only meant that--there was a good
[Part First] [308] crop in the ground--I saw 'em sow it--and the rooks could have a
[Part First] [323] the quivering boy on his legs, took a sixpence from his pocket and
[Part First] [331] sense that he had wholly disgraced himself before he had been a year
[Part First] [332] in the parish, and hence might be a burden to his great-aunt for
[Part First] [336] village, and went homeward by a roundabout track behind a high hedge
[Part First] [337] and across a pasture. Here he beheld scores of coupled earthworms
[Part First] [343] Though Farmer Troutham had just hurt him, he was a boy who could not
[Part First] [344] himself bear to hurt anything. He had never brought home a nest of
[Part First] [348] from a fancy that it hurt them; and late pruning, when the sap was up
[Part First] [349] and the tree bled profusely, had been a positive grief to him in his
[Part First] [351] that he was the sort of man who was born to ache a good deal before
[Part First] [354] among the earthworms, without killing a single one.
[Part First] [356] On entering the cottage he found his aunt selling a penny loaf to a
[Part First] [364] "Mr. Troutham have turned me away because I let the rooks have a few
[Part First] [370] a lecture on how she would now have him all the spring upon her hands
[Part First] [376] father's journeyman, anyhow, and I must have been a fool to let 'ee
[Part First] [382] and only secondarily from a moral one.
[Part First] [393] "Lord! you ought to know where the city of Christminster is. Near a
[Part First] [394] score of miles from here. It is a place much too good for you ever
[Part First] [395] to have much to do with, poor boy, I'm a-thinking."
[Part First] [408] undemanded one, he lay down upon his back on a heap of litter near
[Part First] [417] to be at the centre of your time, and not at a point in its
[Part First] [419] with a sort of shuddering, he perceived. All around you there seemed
[Part First] [424] If he could only prevent himself growing up! He did not want to be a
[Part First] [430] village. Here he asked a man whereabouts Christminster lay.
[Part First] [433] there--not I. I've never had any business at such a place."
[Part First] [440] Christminster lay across it, and the path was a public one. So,
[Part First] [444] other side till the track joined the highway by a little clump of
[Part First] [453] Not a soul was visible on the hedgeless highway, or on either side of
[Part First] [455] the sky. At the very top it was crossed at right angles by a green
[Part First] [463] nestling hamlet in which he had been deposited by the carrier from a
[Part First] [465] and till now he had had no suspicion that such a wide, flat,
[Part First] [468] to a distance of forty or fifty miles, spread itself before him; a
[Part First] [471] Not far from the road stood a weather-beaten old barn of reddish-grey
[Part First] [473] locality. He was about to pass it when he perceived a ladder against
[Part First] [487] it--at least you can on a clear day. Ah, no, you can't now."
[Part First] [492] I've noticed it is when the sun is going down in a blaze of flame,
[Part First] [508] It was waning towards evening; there was still a faint mist, but it
[Part First] [509] had cleared a little except in the damper tracts of subjacent country
[Part First] [516] retreating towards the village only a few hundred yards.
[Part First] [523] you, even though they sometimes did not. He had read in a tract that
[Part First] [524] a man who had begun to build a church, and had no money to finish
[Part First] [528] a wicked Jew. This was not discouraging, and turning on the ladder
[Part First] [534] northern horizon, as it had already done elsewhere, and about a
[Part First] [555] He anxiously descended the ladder, and started homewards at a run,
[Part First] [569] articles exhibited within, and forming part of a stock which a strong
[Part First] [575] he was always beholding a gorgeous city--the fancied place he had
[Part First] [579] acquired a tangibility, a permanence, a hold on his life, mainly from
[Part First] [589] the sight of a dome or spire, at other times by a little smoke, which
[Part First] [593] ascended to the point of view after dark, or possibly went a mile or
[Part First] [596] deter him, for he could throw a little manliness into his mood, no
[Part First] [600] the place of outlook, only just after dusk, but a black north-east
[Part First] [601] sky, accompanied by a wind from the same quarter, made the occasion
[Part First] [604] a halo or glow-fog over-arching the place against the black heavens
[Part First] [605] behind it, making the light and the city seem distant but a mile or
[Part First] [616] the north-east, and drew in the wind as if it were a sweet liquor.
[Part First] [624] Suddenly there came along this wind something towards him--a message
[Part First] [630] mental leap, and only got back to it by a rough recalling. A few
[Part First] [631] yards below the brow of the hill on which he paused a team of horses
[Part First] [634] They had a load of coals behind them--a fuel that could only be got
[Part First] [635] into the upland by this particular route. They were accompanied by a
[Part First] [636] carter, a second man, and a boy, who now kicked a large stone behind
[Part First] [637] one of the wheels, and allowed the panting animals to have a long
[Part First] [638] rest, while those in charge took a flagon off the load and indulged
[Part First] [639] in a drink round.
[Part First] [647] romantically attached to Christminster that, like a young lover
[Part First] [652] "Yes. There do seem a spot a bit brighter in the nor'-east than
[Part First] [656] Here a little book of tales which Jude had tucked up under his arm,
[Part First] [669] spoke alike. They read that sort of thing as fast as a night-hawk
[Part First] [672] Yes, 'tis a serious-minded place. Not but there's wenches in the
[Part First] [674] there like radishes in a bed? And though it do take--how many years,
[Part First] [675] Bob?--five years to turn a lirruping hobble-de-hoy chap into a solemn
[Part First] [678] a long face, and a long black coat and waistcoat, and a religious
[Part First] [687] mind that I be a-talking of the college life. 'Em lives on a lofty
[Part First] [695] homely note with the rest. And there's a street in the place--the
[Part First] [697] think I did know a little about Christminster!"
[Part First] [700] collars again. Jude, throwing a last adoring look at the distant
[Part First] [704] into a cross-road, whereupon Jude thanked the carter warmly for his
[Part First] [711] A-getting about the world as I do, and mixing with all classes of
[Part First] [712] society, one can't help hearing of things. A friend o' mine, that
[Part First] [721] that place in this city if he could get there? Would it be a spot in
[Part First] [725] when gazing at it a quarter of an hour earlier, so was the spot
[Part First] [728] "It is a city of light," he said to himself.
[Part First] [730] "The tree of knowledge grows there," he added a few steps further on.
[Part First] [732] "It is a place that teachers of men spring from and go to."
[Part First] [734] "It is what you may call a castle, manned by scholarship and
[Part First] [737] After this figure he was silent a long while, till he added:
[Part First] [748] in others--was overtaken by a light-footed pedestrian, whom,
[Part First] [750] extraordinarily tall hat, a swallow-tailed coat, and a watch-chain
[Part First] [752] its owner swung along upon a pair of thin legs and noiseless boots.
[Part First] [755] "Well, my man! I'm in a hurry, so you'll have to walk pretty fast
[Part First] [760] "Ah--I'm known everywhere, I see! That comes of being a public
[Part First] [769] advertising. He was, in fact, a survival. The distances he
[Part First] [771] and breadth of Wessex. Jude had one day seen him selling a pot of
[Part First] [772] coloured lard to an old woman as a certain cure for a bad leg, the
[Part First] [773] woman arranging to pay a guinea, in instalments of a shilling a
[Part First] [775] could only be obtained from a particular animal which grazed on
[Part First] [778] medicines, felt him to be unquestionably a travelled personage, and
[Part First] [779] one who might be a trustworthy source of information on matters not
[Part First] [787] "It's a wonderful city for scholarship and religion?"
[Part First] [791] good Latin, that I admit, as a critic: dog-Latin--cat-Latin, as we
[Part First] [801] "A lofty desire. You must get a grammar of each tongue."
[Part First] [808] of breath. Two and threepence a box--specially licensed by the
[Part First] [813] "I'll sell you mine with pleasure--those I used as a student."
[Part First] [816] amazing speed of the physician's walk kept him in a dog-trot which
[Part First] [817] was giving him a stitch in the side.
[Part First] [820] what I'll do. I'll get you the grammars, and give you a first
[Part First] [837] Jude then dropped behind, waited a few minutes to recover breath,
[Part First] [838] and went home with a consciousness of having struck a blow for
[Part First] [845] if a supernatural lamp were held inside their transparent natures,
[Part First] [855] by a single unit of force, the latter seemed hardly to recognize his
[Part First] [883] and he repeated, in a voice of dry misery, "You haven't brought 'em!"
[Part First] [892] his imaginary crown of laurel; he turned to a gate, leant against it,
[Part First] [897] that required money, and a knowledge of what books to order; and
[Part First] [899] to be without a farthing of his own.
[Part First] [902] a lead. Why should he not write to the schoolmaster, and ask him to
[Part First] [904] slip a letter inside the case of the instrument, and it would be
[Part First] [912] After a further consideration of a few days he did act, and on the
[Part First] [921] stirring. At last a packet did indeed arrive at the village, and he
[Part First] [923] away into a lonely place, and sat down on a felled elm to open it.
[Part First] [928] language into those of another. He concluded that a grammar of the
[Part First] [929] required tongue would contain, primarily, a rule, prescription, or
[Part First] [930] clue of the nature of a secret cipher, which, once known, would
[Part First] [933] fact, a pushing to the extremity of mathematical precision what is
[Part First] [946] wantonly over with a strange name in every variety of enmity to the
[Part First] [956] elm, and was an utterly miserable boy for the space of a quarter of
[Part First] [961] really a labour like that of Israel in Egypt.
[Part First] [967] wished he had never seen a book, that he might never see another,
[Part First] [981] During the three or four succeeding years a quaint and singular
[Part First] [983] near Marygreen, driven in a quaint and singular way.
[Part First] [985] In the course of a month or two after the receipt of the books
[Part First] [988] tongues had, after a while, been the means of still further
[Part First] [991] inherently to possess, was a herculean performance which gradually
[Part First] [992] led him on to a greater interest in it than in the presupposed patent
[Part First] [994] in those dusty volumes called the classics piqued him into a dogged,
[Part First] [1000] aged horse with a hanging head had been purchased for eight pounds at
[Part First] [1001] a sale, a creaking cart with a whity-brown tilt obtained for a few
[Part First] [1002] pounds more, and in this turn-out it became Jude's business thrice a
[Part First] [1011] slip the reins over his arm, ingeniously fix open, by means of a
[Part First] [1016] a tender-hearted pedagogue shed tears; yet somehow getting at the
[Part First] [1026] construction, as he would have used a comrade or tutor who should
[Part First] [1028] chance of becoming a scholar by these rough and ready means, he was
[Part First] [1042] enough to himself, was not altogether a safe proceeding for other
[Part First] [1043] travellers along the same roads. There were murmurs. Then a private
[Part First] [1056] therefore, to keep a sharp eye ahead and around him as well as he
[Part First] [1060] Jude's bread-cart, considering that in such a lonely district the
[Part First] [1064] On a day when Fawley was getting quite advanced, being now about
[Part First] [1071] poem that, in a moment of the same impulsive emotion which years
[Part First] [1084] repeated under the sway of a polytheistic fancy that he would never
[Part First] [1089] to such a lapse from common sense and custom in one who wished, next
[Part First] [1090] to being a scholar, to be a Christian divine. It had all come of
[Part First] [1099] up a wrong emotion for a Christian young man. He had dabbled in
[Part First] [1101] in the Greek, though he possessed a copy, obtained by post from a
[Part First] [1102] second-hand bookseller. He abandoned the now familiar Ionic for a
[Part First] [1103] new dialect, and for a long time onward limited his reading almost
[Part First] [1111] the churches within a walk, and deciphered the Latin inscriptions on
[Part First] [1113] met with a hunch-backed old woman of great intelligence, who read
[Part First] [1125] for making the second he felt a distaste; the preparation of the
[Part First] [1126] third requisite he inclined to. They built in a city; therefore he
[Part First] [1129] medival art in any material was a trade for which he had rather a
[Part First] [1134] As a preliminary he obtained some small blocks of freestone, metal
[Part First] [1139] There was a stone-mason of a humble kind in Alfredston, and as
[Part First] [1140] soon as he had found a substitute for himself in his aunt's little
[Part First] [1141] business, he offered his services to this man for a trifling wage.
[Part First] [1143] freestone-working. Some time later he went to a church-builder in
[Part First] [1149] a prop to lean on while he prepared those greater engines which
[Part First] [1166] work early, and had come out of the town by a round-about route which
[Part First] [1167] he did not usually frequent, having promised to call at a flour-mill
[Part First] [1168] near Cresscombe to execute a commission for his aunt.
[Part First] [1171] comfortably in Christminster in the course of a year or two, and
[Part First] [1175] with a little more assurance as to means than he could be said to
[Part First] [1176] feel at present. A warm self-content suffused him when he considered
[Part First] [1185] Jude possessing a facility in that language which enabled him with
[Part First] [1193] funeral games in the twenty-third. I have also done some Hesiod, a
[Part First] [1194] little scrap of Thucydides, and a lot of the Greek Testament... I
[Part First] [1204] "These things are only a beginning. But I shall not make much
[Part First] [1215] And then he continued to dream, and thought he might become even a
[Part First] [1216] bishop by leading a pure, energetic, wise, Christian life. And what
[Part First] [1217] an example he would set! If his income were 5000 a year, he would
[Part First] [1219] him) on the remainder. Well, on second thoughts, a bishop was
[Part First] [1220] absurd. He would draw the line at an archdeacon. Perhaps a man
[Part First] [1234] Bede and ecclesiastical history generally; a smattering of Hebrew--I
[Part First] [1246] at the ground as though the future were thrown thereon by a magic
[Part First] [1247] lantern. On a sudden something smacked him sharply in the ear, and
[Part First] [1248] he became aware that a soft cold substance had been flung at him, and
[Part First] [1251] A glance told him what it was--a piece of flesh, the characteristic
[Part First] [1252] part of a barrow-pig, which the countrymen used for greasing their
[Part First] [1257] On the other side of the hedge was a stream, whence, as he now for
[Part First] [1260] looked over the fence. On the further side of the stream stood a
[Part First] [1261] small homestead, having a garden and pig-sties attached; in front of
[Part First] [1288] She whom he addressed was a fine dark-eyed girl, not exactly
[Part First] [1289] handsome, but capable of passing as such at a little distance,
[Part First] [1290] despite some coarseness of skin and fibre. She had a round and
[Part First] [1292] of a Cochin hen's egg. She was a complete and substantial female
[Part First] [1311] there was a momentary flash of intelligence, a dumb announcement of
[Part First] [1314] that he had singled her out from the three, as a woman is singled out
[Part First] [1324] basket of tools, picked up the scrap of offal, beat a pathway for
[Part First] [1330] brought as by magic upon its smooth and rotund surface a perfect
[Part First] [1332] to smile. This production of dimples at will was a not unknown
[Part First] [1333] operation, which many attempted, but only a few succeeded in
[Part First] [1369] "My father is a pig-breeder, and these girls are helping me wash the
[Part First] [1372] They talked a little more and a little more, as they stood regarding
[Part First] [1376] intention--almost against his will, and in a way new to his
[Part First] [1378] moment Jude had never looked at a woman to consider her as such, but
[Part First] [1384] "What a nice-looking girl you are!" he murmured, though the words had
[Part First] [1392] though there med be in a week or two." She had spoken this without
[Part First] [1393] a smile, and the dimples disappeared.
[Part First] [1401] her face aside for a moment and repeating the odd little sucking
[Part First] [1403] a general impression of her appearance. "Next Sunday?" he hazarded.
[Part First] [1412] She brightened with a little glow of triumph, swept him almost
[Part First] [1418] just inhaled a single breath from a new atmosphere, which had
[Part First] [1421] by a sheet of glass. The intentions as to reading, working, and
[Part First] [1422] learning, which he had so precisely formulated only a few minutes
[Part First] [1423] earlier, were suffering a curious collapse into a corner, he knew not
[Part First] [1426] "Well, it's only a bit of fun," he said to himself, faintly conscious
[Part First] [1434] He saw this with his intellectual eye, just for a short; fleeting
[Part First] [1435] while, as by the light of a falling lamp one might momentarily see an
[Part First] [1436] inscription on a wall before being enshrouded in darkness. And then
[Part First] [1438] all conditions of things in the advent of a fresh and wild pleasure,
[Part First] [1439] that of having found a new channel for emotional interest hitherto
[Part First] [1455] always reading. He wants to be a scholar, they say."
[Part First] [1462] you don't, he's as simple as a child. I could see it as you courted
[Part First] [1463] on the bridge, when he looked at 'ee as if he had never seen a woman
[Part First] [1465] get him to care for her a bit, if she likes to set herself to catch
[Part First] [1480] set this afternoon apart for a special purpose,--the re-reading of
[Part First] [1484] having obtained it by boldly writing to its London publisher, a thing
[Part First] [1489] slept only two nights a week. But a new thing, a great hitch, had
[Part First] [1491] and he felt as a snake must feel who has sloughed off its winter
[Part First] [1505] There was a something in her, too, which was very winning, apart from
[Part First] [1512] In short, as if materially, a compelling arm of extraordinary
[Part First] [1516] his so-called elevated intentions, and moved him along, as a violent
[Part First] [1517] schoolmaster a schoolboy he has seized by the collar, in a direction
[Part First] [1518] which tended towards the embrace of a woman for whom he had no
[Part First] [1531] easily, and a good long time would still remain to him for reading
[Part First] [1539] dwelling. A smell of piggeries came from the back, and the grunting
[Part First] [1543] Somebody had seen him through the window, for a male voice on the
[Part First] [1548] Jude winced at the words. Courting in such a businesslike aspect as
[Part First] [1555] "Take a chair, Mr. What's-your-name?" said her father, an energetic,
[Part First] [1578] the mythology, or that the sun was anything else than a useful
[Part First] [1583] wench in agreeing to take a walk with him in her Sunday frock and
[Part First] [1588] this spot they were struck by the rising of a dense volume of smoke
[Part First] [1589] from the neighbourhood of the little town which lay beneath them at a
[Part First] [1590] distance of a couple of miles.
[Part First] [1592] "It is a fire," said Arabella. "Let's run and see it--do! It is not
[Part First] [1597] for a longer time with her. They started off down the hill almost at
[Part First] [1598] a trot; but on gaining level ground at the bottom, and walking a
[Part First] [1604] distance being altogether about half-a-dozen miles from Marygreen,
[Part First] [1606] by the time they reached it, and after a short inspection of the
[Part First] [1612] had a long time to wait. The maid-servant recognized Jude, and
[Part First] [1617] tender gaze of her lover--the low and triumphant laugh of a careless
[Part First] [1624] few places can produce like a tap-room on a Sunday evening when
[Part First] [1629] tea, they said. "Yet what else can we do?" asked Jude. "It is a
[Part First] [1635] to a public-house for beer on a Sunday evening."
[Part First] [1661] seemed a quite bold enough thing: "Take my arm."
[Part First] [1711] She asked him to come in, if only for a minute, as it would seem so
[Part First] [1715] They all spoke in a congratulatory manner, and took him seriously as
[Part First] [1719] and embarrassed. He had not meant this: a mere afternoon of
[Part First] [1721] not stay longer than to speak to her stepmother, a simple, quiet
[Part First] [1723] plunged with a sense of relief into the track over the down.
[Part First] [1728] his intentions, hitherto adhered to so strictly, as to not wasting a
[Part First] [1731] time: not wasting life. It was better to love a woman than to be a
[Part First] [1732] graduate, or a parson; ay, or a pope!
[Part First] [1734] When he got back to the house his aunt had gone to bed, and a general
[Part First] [1736] confronting him. He went upstairs without a light, and the dim
[Part First] [1740] like the unclosed eyes of a dead man:
[Part First] [1750] lodgings; and it was with a sense of futility that he threw into his
[Part First] [1754] He kept his impassioned doings a secret almost from himself.
[Part First] [1758] Retracing by the light of dawn the road he had followed a few hours
[Part First] [1767] nature" so depicted her past presence that a void was in his heart
[Part First] [1768] which nothing could fill. A pollard willow stood close to the place,
[Part First] [1774] An hour and a half later Arabella came along the same way with her
[Part First] [1783] felt not a little surprised at learning how very few of his sayings
[Part First] [1786] "You've got him to care for 'ee a bit, 'nation if you han't!"
[Part First] [1789] In a few moments Arabella replied in a curiously low, hungry tone of
[Part First] [1796] "As he is a romancing, straightfor'ard, honest chap, he's to be had,
[Part First] [1797] and as a husband, if you set about catching him in the right way."
[Part First] [1811] "And having lived in a town, too, as one may say! Well, we can teach
[Part First] [1814] "Yes. And how do you mean--a sure way to gain a man? Take me for an
[Part First] [1817] "As a husband."
[Part First] [1819] "As a husband."
[Part First] [1821] "A countryman that's honourable and serious-minded such as he; God
[Part First] [1822] forbid that I should say a sojer, or sailor, or commercial gent from
[Part First] [1830] although nobody was near, imparted some information in a low tone,
[Part First] [1834] way! ... But suppose he ISN'T honourable? A woman had better not
[Part First] [1851] Marygreen from his lodging in Alfredston, a walk which now had large
[Part First] [1854] with the single purpose of gaining, on his way, a glimpse of Arabella
[Part First] [1868] Farm only yesterday, where Father bought 'em at a stiff price enough.
[Part First] [1875] when he caught her for a moment and kissed her. The first pig was
[Part First] [1876] got back promptly; the second with some difficulty; the third a
[Part First] [1878] through a hole in the garden hedge, and into the lane.
[Part First] [1900] summit he could be seen as a minute speck, following an unerring line
[Part First] [1909] flung herself down on the sod under a stunted thorn, precipitately
[Part First] [1921] parted, and a fine dew of perspiration on her skin. "Well--why don't
[Part First] [1927] that of empty surrounding space. Nobody could be nearer than a mile
[Part First] [1933] "Oh, I can see such a pretty thing up this tree," said Arabella. "A
[Part First] [1934] sort of a--caterpillar, of the most loveliest green and yellow you
[Part First] [1960] She rolled round her face, remained a moment looking deedily aslant
[Part First] [1961] at him; then with a slight curl of the lip sprang to her feet, and
[Part First] [1972] like a pet lamb till she slackened her pace and walked beside him,
[Part First] [1976] nodding good-bye to him with a supercilious, affronted air.
[Part First] [1979] himself, as he withdrew with a sigh and went on to Marygreen.
[Part First] [1982] the scene of a grand weekly cooking, the preparation of the special
[Part First] [1983] Sunday dinner. Her father was shaving before a little glass hung on
[Part First] [1985] shelling beans hard by. A neighbour passed on her way home from
[Part First] [1992] Arabella merely threw a look of consciousness into her face without
[Part First] [1997] "Have you heard that lately--quite lately?" asked Arabella with a
[Part First] [2000] "Oh no! But it has been known a long time that it is his plan. He's
[Part First] [2002] somebody, I s'pose. Young men don't mean much now-a-days. 'Tis a sip
[Part First] [2003] here and a sip there with 'em. 'Twas different in my time."
[Part First] [2019] for weeks ceased to look into a book of Greek, Latin, or any other
[Part First] [2032] come in. Why are you in such a hurry to go in to-night? It is not
[Part First] [2035] "Wait a moment," said she. She tried the handle of the door and
[Part First] [2040] in a moment?" she asked lightly. "We shall be all alone."
[Part First] [2050] perhaps I had better put it in a safe place." She began unfastening
[Part First] [2055] "An egg--a cochin's egg. I am hatching a very rare sort. I carry it
[Part First] [2062] which was wrapped in wool, outside it being a piece of pig's bladder,
[Part First] [2067] "Why do you do such a strange thing?"
[Part First] [2069] "It's an old custom. I suppose it is natural for a woman to want to
[Part First] [2081] "You should have catched me a minute ago when I had put the egg down!
[Part First] [2083] withdrawn the egg a second time; but before he could quite reach her
[Part First] [2085] strategy. Then there was a little struggle, Jude making a plunge for
[Part First] [2095] room, and the window being small he could not discover for a long
[Part First] [2096] time what had become of her, till a laugh revealed her to have rushed
[Part First] [2140] three, of marrying. It is a complete smashing up of my plans--I mean
[Part First] [2147] Arabella was not worth a great deal as a specimen of womankind.
[Part First] [2149] young men who had drifted so far into intimacy with a woman as he
[Part First] [2151] and take the consequences. For his own soothing he kept up a
[Part First] [2156] of the parish all said what a simple fool young Fawley was. All his
[Part First] [2170] Fawley's aunt being a baker she made him a bride-cake, saying
[Part First] [2180] brilliant even to the most sanguine mind. He, a stone-mason's
[Part First] [2182] he should be out of his time. His wife was absolutely useless in a
[Part First] [2185] little a degree caused him to take a lonely roadside cottage between
[Part First] [2186] the Brown House and Marygreen, that he might have the profits of a
[Part First] [2188] keep a pig. But it was not the sort of life he had bargained for,
[Part First] [2189] and it was a long way to walk to and from Alfredston every day.
[Part First] [2191] she had gained a husband; that was the thing--a husband with a lot
[Part First] [2193] begin to get frightened a bit, and stick to his trade, and throw
[Part First] [2200] A little chill overspread him at her first unrobing. A long tail of
[Part First] [2205] "What--it wasn't your own?" he said, with a sudden distaste for her.
[Part First] [2217] "Well, not exactly barmaid--I used to draw the drink at a
[Part First] [2218] public-house there--just for a little time; that was all. Some
[Part First] [2219] people put me up to getting this, and I bought it just for a fancy.
[Part First] [2220] The more you have the better in Aldbrickham, which is a finer town
[Part First] [2224] Jude thought with a feeling of sickness that though this might be
[Part First] [2230] was no great sin in a woman adding to her hair, and he resolved to
[Part First] [2233] A new-made wife can usually manage to excite interest for a few
[Part First] [2235] are cloudy. There is a certain piquancy about her situation, and
[Part First] [2245] "So it turned out a good plan, you see!" remarked the girl to the
[Part First] [2246] wife. "I knew it would with such as him. He's a dear good fellow,
[Part First] [2259] "Oh, Arabella, Arabella; you be a deep one! Mistaken! well, that's
[Part First] [2260] clever--it's a real stroke of genius! It is a thing I never thought
[Part First] [2266] "My word--won't he be in a taking! He'll give it to 'ee o' Saturday
[Part First] [2267] nights! Whatever it was, he'll say it was a trick--a double one, by
[Part First] [2275] Nevertheless it was with a little uneasiness that Arabella approached
[Part First] [2288] dimple before alluded to, a curious accomplishment of which she was
[Part First] [2289] mistress, effecting it by a momentary suction. It seemed to him for
[Part First] [2306] "I don't care about dimples. I don't think they improve a
[Part First] [2307] woman--particularly a married woman, and of full-sized figure like
[Part First] [2321] "You ought to have known better than that, and seen I was a little
[Part First] [2341] "There's nothing to tell. I made a mistake."
[Part First] [2345] "It was a mistake."
[Part First] [2351] "But--! Why, of course, so unprepared as I was, without a stick of
[Part First] [2352] furniture, and hardly a shilling, I shouldn't have hurried on our
[Part First] [2353] affair, and brought you to a half-furnished hut before I was ready,
[Part First] [2364] When Jude awoke the next morning he seemed to see the world with a
[Part First] [2370] There seemed to him, vaguely and dimly, something wrong in a social
[Part First] [2371] ritual which made necessary a cancelling of well-formed schemes
[Part First] [2372] involving years of thought and labour, of foregoing a man's one
[Part First] [2375] generation, because of a momentary surprise by a new and transitory
[Part First] [2379] in a gin which would cripple him, if not her also, for the rest of a
[Part First] [2392] that Jude might get to Alfredston without losing more than a quarter
[Part First] [2393] of a day.
[Part First] [2397] snow--snow rather deep for the season, it seemed, a few flakes still
[Part First] [2409] it with bean-stalks, all the time without a candle, the blaze
[Part First] [2410] flinging a cheerful shine into the room; though for him the sense of
[Part First] [2413] yet lived, and whose voice could be continually heard from a corner
[Part First] [2421] They waited, and it grew lighter, with the dreary light of a snowy
[Part First] [2445] such a big pig I had rather Challow had done it. However, his basket
[Part First] [2452] He went out to the sty, shovelled away the snow for the space of a
[Part First] [2454] knives and ropes at hand. A robin peered down at the preparations
[Part First] [2458] affrighted animal, who, beginning with a squeak of surprise, rose to
[Part First] [2468] this to do!" said Jude. "A creature I have fed with my own hands."
[Part First] [2470] "Don't be such a tender-hearted fool! There's the sticking-knife--
[Part First] [2478] that he must die slow. We shall lose a shilling a score if the meat
[Part First] [2483] "He shall not be half a minute if I can help it, however the meat may
[Part First] [2491] "Do be quiet, Arabella, and have a little pity on the creature!"
[Part First] [2496] blood flowed out in a torrent instead of in the trickling stream she
[Part First] [2499] Arabella with the eloquently keen reproach of a creature recognizing
[Part First] [2502] "Make un stop that!" said Arabella. "Such a noise will bring
[Part First] [2511] "It is a hateful business!" said he.
[Part First] [2515] The animal heaved in a final convulsion, and, despite the rope,
[Part First] [2516] kicked out with all his last strength. A tablespoonful of black
[Part First] [2521] keep back a drop like that as long as they can!"
[Part First] [2527] "There!" she cried, thoroughly in a passion. "Now I can't make any
[Part First] [2528] blackpot. There's a waste, all through you!"
[Part First] [2530] Jude put the pail upright, but only about a third of the whole
[Part First] [2532] the snow, and forming a dismal, sordid, ugly spectacle--to those who
[Part First] [2539] "What's God got to do with such a messy job as a pig-killing, I
[Part First] [2544] Suddenly they became aware of a voice at hand.
[Part First] [2554] fetch so much by a shilling a score!"
[Part First] [2556] Challow expressed his contrition. "You should have waited a bit"
[Part First] [2562] Jude too laughed, but there was a strong flavour of bitterness in
[Part First] [2566] scalding and scraping. Jude felt dissatisfied with himself as a man
[Part First] [2570] wore an illogical look to him as a lover of justice, not to say a
[Part First] [2572] doubt he was, as his wife had called him, a tender-hearted fool.
[Part First] [2583] companions was talking to a friend in a shed, himself being the
[Part First] [2604] on a jaunt all day, and so delayed her work. Dreading lest what he
[Part First] [2610] "An apprentice's wages are not meant to be enough to keep a wife on,
[Part First] [2611] as a rule, my dear."
[Part First] [2618] Doctor Vilbert thought so. It was a good job for you that it wasn't
[Part First] [2624] this moment have been free from a bond which, not to mince matters,
[Part First] [2638] laughing coldly. "Every woman has a right to do such as that. The
[Part First] [2645] entraps a man if he is honest, or herself if he is otherwise."
[Part First] [2667] Much of a catch you were, Lord send!" As she warmed she saw some of
[Part First] [2668] Jude's dear ancient classics on a table where they ought not to have
[Part First] [2691] After a pause: "I do."
[Part First] [2694] out of which she went with a set face, and into the highway. Here
[Part First] [2695] she began to saunter up and down, perversely pulling her hair into a
[Part First] [2697] her gown. It was a fine Sunday morning, dry, clear and frosty, and
[Part First] [2717] that of having based a permanent contract on a temporary feeling
[Part First] [2719] a lifelong comradeship tolerable.
[Part First] [2723] "All you be a queer lot as husbands and wives!"
[Part First] [2727] after wandering vaguely a little while, walked in the direction of
[Part First] [2740] she--must have been a fool to open up that! There isn't much to know
[Part First] [2742] parted. It was coming home from Alfredston market, when you were a
[Part First] [2762] "A little further on--where the road to Fenworth branches off, and
[Part First] [2763] the handpost stands. A gibbet once stood there not onconnected with
[Part First] [2768] upon it till he came to a large round pond. The frost continued,
[Part First] [2774] around him and gave a jump. The cracking repeated itself; but he did
[Part First] [2779] he was not a sufficiently dignified person for suicide. Peaceful
[Part First] [2780] death abhorred him as a subject, and would not take him.
[Part First] [2782] What could he do of a lower kind than self-extermination; what was
[Part First] [2798] his stumbling state it was some time before he could get a light.
[Part First] [2801] A line written by his wife on the inside of an old envelope was
[Part First] [2808] put the key in a place she would know if she came back, and returned
[Part First] [2813] came a letter from her.
[Part First] [2816] a slow old coach, and she did not care for the sort of life he
[Part First] [2820] pig-jobbing business being a poor one nowadays. They had at last
[Part First] [2822] objection. A woman of her sort would have more chance over there
[Part First] [2826] thought it a wise course, since she wished to go, and one that might
[Part First] [2835] his own household goods into a waggon, and sent them to her at the
[Part First] [2839] He then went into lodgings at Alfredston, and saw in a shopwindow the
[Part First] [2843] the southern road was materially increased by the auction. A few
[Part First] [2844] days later he entered a dingy broker's shop in the main street
[Part First] [2845] of the town, and amid a heterogeneous collection of saucepans, a
[Part First] [2848] from a sale, he perceived a framed photograph, which turned out to be
[Part First] [2851] It was one which he had had specially taken and framed by a local man
[Part First] [2852] in bird's-eye maple, as a present for Arabella, and had duly given
[Part First] [2859] "It is a small lot of stuff that was knocked down to me at a cottage
[Part First] [2860] sale out on the road to Marygreen. The frame is a very useful one,
[Part First] [2861] if you take out the likeness. You shall have it for a shilling."
[Part First] [2871] departed. He had sent a message offering to see her for a formal
[Part First] [2879] He could not realize himself. On the old track he seemed to be a
[Part First] [2880] boy still, hardly a day older than when he had stood dreaming at the
[Part First] [2882] Christminster and scholarship. "Yet I am a man," he said. "I have
[Part First] [2883] a wife. More, I have arrived at the still riper stage of having
[Part First] [2884] disagreed with her, disliked her, had a scuffle with her, and parted
[Part First] [2891] A little further on was the summit whence Christminster, or what he
[Part First] [2892] had taken for that city, had seemed to be visible. A milestone, now
[Part First] [2900] of the milestone brushed away the nettles. By the light of a match
[Part First] [2907] [with a pointing finger]
[Part First] [2911] lit in his soul a spark of the old fire. Surely his plan should
[Part First] [2920] By moving to a spot a little way off he uncovered the horizon in a
[Part First] [2921] north-easterly direction. There actually rose the faint halo, a
[Part First] [2926] He returned to his lodgings in a better mood, and said his prayers.
[Part Second] [2950] gliding steadily onward through a dusky landscape of some three
[Part Second] [2953] walking towards Christminster City, at a point a mile or two to the
[Part Second] [2958] to be in the way of making a new start--the start to which, barring
[Part Second] [2962] Jude would now have been described as a young man with a forcible,
[Part Second] [2965] a closely trimmed black beard of more advanced growth than is usual
[Part Second] [2971] restoration of churches, and carving of a general kind. In London
[Part Second] [2972] he would probably have become specialized and have made himself a
[Part Second] [2973] "moulding mason," a "foliage sculptor"--perhaps a "statuary."
[Part Second] [2975] He had that afternoon driven in a cart from Alfredston to the village
[Part Second] [2980] The ultimate impulse to come had had a curious origin--one more
[Part Second] [2985] photograph of a pretty girlish face, in a broad hat with radiating
[Part Second] [2986] folds under the brim like the rays of a halo. He had asked who she
[Part Second] [2993] ultimately formed a quickening ingredient in his latent intent of
[Part Second] [2996] He now paused at the top of a crooked and gentle declivity,
[Part Second] [3002] a vane here and there on their many spires and domes giving sparkle
[Part Second] [3003] to a picture of sober secondary and tertiary hues.
[Part Second] [3014] He was a species of Dick Whittington whose spirit was touched to
[Part Second] [3015] finer issues than a mere material gain. He went along the outlying
[Part Second] [3017] the real city in the suburbs on this side. His first want being a
[Part Second] [3020] and after inquiry took a room in a suburb nicknamed "Beersheba,"
[Part Second] [3024] It was a windy, whispering, moonless night. To guide himself he
[Part Second] [3025] opened under a lamp a map he had brought. The breeze ruffled and
[Part Second] [3030] that he had encountered. It was a college, as he could see by the
[Part Second] [3033] a little further on another; and then he began to be encircled as it
[Part Second] [3038] A bell began clanging, and he listened till a hundred-and-one strokes
[Part Second] [3039] had sounded. He must have made a mistake, he thought: it was meant
[Part Second] [3040] for a hundred.
[Part Second] [3047] ten bygone years, and what mattered a night's rest for once? High
[Part Second] [3048] against the black sky the flash of a lamp would show crocketed
[Part Second] [3057] Knowing not a human being here, Jude began to be impressed with
[Part Second] [3058] the isolation of his own personality, as with a self-spectre, the
[Part Second] [3089] A start of aversion appeared in his fancy to move them at sight of
[Part Second] [3107] the names. A keener regard attached to the prelates, by reason of
[Part Second] [3115] them as it were, like an actor in a melodrama who apostrophizes the
[Part Second] [3117] with a start at his absurdity. Perhaps those incoherent words of the
[Part Second] [3122] of a belated townsman here and there, and that he seemed to be
[Part Second] [3123] catching a cold.
[Part Second] [3125] A voice reached him out of the shade; a real and local voice:
[Part Second] [3127] "You've been a-settin' a long time on that plinth-stone, young man.
[Part Second] [3130] It came from a policeman who had been observing Jude without the
[Part Second] [3133] Jude went home and to bed, after reading up a little about these men
[Part Second] [3134] and their several messages to the world from a book or two that he
[Part Second] [3148] just seen in the quadrangle with a great bell. Jude thought his soul
[Part Second] [3151] "Sir, I may be wrong, but my impression is that my duty towards a
[Part Second] [3175] The life of the race by a general plan.
[Part Second] [3184] to logical certainty might create a mental certitude."
[Part Second] [3198] desire goes out; when I meet with the grief of parents upon a
[Part Second] [3203] And lastly a gentle-voiced prelate spoke, during whose meek, familiar
[Part Second] [3227] bread-and-cheese question, dissipated the phantasmal for a while, and
[Part Second] [3257] that in a place of crumbling stones there must be plenty for one of
[Part Second] [3263] The yard was a little centre of regeneration. Here, with keen edges
[Part Second] [3278] For a moment there fell on Jude a true illumination; that here in the
[Part Second] [3279] stone yard was a centre of effort as worthy as that dignified by the
[Part Second] [3283] recommendation; but he would accept it as a provisional thing only.
[Part Second] [3289] medivalism was as dead as a fern-leaf in a lump of coal; that other
[Part Second] [3299] send it. She did so, with a request, however, that he was not to
[Part Second] [3301] relations. Jude, a ridiculously affectionate fellow, promised
[Part Second] [3307] There remained the schoolmaster--probably now a reverend parson.
[Part Second] [3308] But he could not possibly hunt up such a respectable man just yet;
[Part Second] [3316] newcomers to a spot on which the past is deeply graven he heard that
[Part Second] [3322] echoes of his own footsteps, smart as the blows of a mallet. The
[Part Second] [3330] that enthusiasm he really was. Only a wall divided him from those
[Part Second] [3331] happy young contemporaries of his with whom he shared a common mental
[Part Second] [3333] mark, learn, and inwardly digest. Only a wall--but what a wall!
[Part Second] [3341] antipodes. Of course he was. He was a young workman in a white
[Part Second] [3344] through him as through a pane of glass at their familiars beyond.
[Part Second] [3356] At length he did receive a message from the stone-mason's yard--that
[Part Second] [3357] a job was waiting for him. It was his first encouragement, and he
[Part Second] [3363] he bought a shaded lamp for four and six-pence, and obtained a good
[Part Second] [3366] his landlady, he shifted all the furniture of his room--a single one
[Part Second] [3367] for living and sleeping--rigged up a curtain on a rope across the
[Part Second] [3368] middle, to make a double chamber out of one, hung up a thick blind
[Part Second] [3372] Having been deeply encumbered by marrying, getting a cottage, and
[Part Second] [3376] obliged to live in the narrowest way. After buying a book or two
[Part Second] [3377] he could not even afford himself a fire; and when the nights reeked
[Part Second] [3379] a great-coat, hat, and woollen gloves.
[Part Second] [3384] bridge he could also get a glimpse of by going to the staircase.
[Part Second] [3393] a son of the University. "For wisdom is a defence, and money is a
[Part Second] [3398] At this time he received a nervously anxious letter from his poor old
[Part Second] [3399] aunt, on the subject which had previously distressed her--a fear that
[Part Second] [3405] a perfect seed-bed of idolatry, and she was no doubt abandoned to
[Part Second] [3406] mummeries on that account--if not quite a Papist. (Miss Drusilla
[Part Second] [3409] As Jude was rather on an intellectual track than a theological, this
[Part Second] [3414] beheld in one of them a young girl sitting behind a desk, who was
[Part Second] [3416] on a trivial errand, and having made his purchase lingered on the
[Part Second] [3426] He stole a glance round. Before her lay a piece of zinc, cut to
[Part Second] [3427] the shape of a scroll three or four feet long, and coated with a
[Part Second] [3432] A L L E L U J A
[Part Second] [3435] "A sweet, saintly, Christian business, hers!" thought he.
[Part Second] [3447] lent a pathetic force to a wish that would have been inoperative as
[Part Second] [3456] far as a Christian could, particularly when he had told her that
[Part Second] [3466] more men, outside Crozier College in Old-time Street, in getting a
[Part Second] [3467] block of worked freestone from a waggon across the pavement, before
[Part Second] [3472] All of a sudden, as he lifted, his cousin stood close to his elbow,
[Part Second] [3473] pausing a moment on the bend of her foot till the obstructing object
[Part Second] [3478] words just spoken to a companion, and being carried on into his face
[Part Second] [3483] his face away with a shy instinct to prevent her recognizing him,
[Part Second] [3486] perceive that though she was a country-girl at bottom, a latter
[Part Second] [3487] girlhood of some years in London, and a womanhood here, had taken
[Part Second] [3492] general mould and build. He remembered now that she was not a large
[Part Second] [3495] all was nervous motion. She was mobile, living, yet a painter might
[Part Second] [3497] surprised him. She was quite a long way removed from the rusticity
[Part Second] [3506] wish in a contrary direction, he would soon be unable to resist the
[Part Second] [3509] He affected to think of her quite in a family way, since there were
[Part Second] [3516] The third: even were he free, in a family like his own where marriage
[Part Second] [3517] usually meant a tragic sadness, marriage with a blood-relation would
[Part Second] [3518] duplicate the adverse conditions, and a tragic sadness might be
[Part Second] [3519] intensified to a tragic horror.
[Part Second] [3521] Therefore, again, he would have to think of Sue with only a
[Part Second] [3523] a practical way as some one to be proud of; to talk and nod to;
[Part Second] [3525] rigorously that of a kinsman and well-wisher. So would she be to him
[Part Second] [3526] a kindly star, an elevating power, a companion in Anglican worship,
[Part Second] [3527] a tender friend.
[Part Second] [3536] service in the Cathedral church of Cardinal College to gain a further
[Part Second] [3542] which it was accessible, and he stood in a corner while the bell was
[Part Second] [3543] going. A few minutes before the hour for service she appeared as
[Part Second] [3551] advanced when he was put into a seat. It was a louring, mournful,
[Part Second] [3552] still afternoon, when a religion of some sort seems a necessity to
[Part Second] [3553] ordinary practical men, and not only a luxury of the emotional
[Part Second] [3559] part, _In quo corriget_, the organ changing to a pathetic Gregorian
[Part Second] [3563] Wherewithal shall a young man cleanse his way?
[Part Second] [3567] moment. What a wicked worthless fellow he had been to give vent as
[Part Second] [3568] he had done to an animal passion for a woman, and allow it to lead
[Part Second] [3579] which floated into his ears; and the thought was a delight to him.
[Part Second] [3580] She was probably a frequenter of this place, and, steeped body and
[Part Second] [3586] the service in a sustaining atmosphere of ecstasy.
[Part Second] [3601] She was such a stranger that the kinship was affectation, and he
[Part Second] [3602] said, "It can't be! I, a man with a wife, must not know her!" Still
[Part Second] [3603] Sue WAS his own kin, and the fact of his having a wife, even though
[Part Second] [3604] she was not in evidence in this hemisphere, might be a help in one
[Part Second] [3605] sense. It would put all thought of a tender wish on his part out
[Part Second] [3616] which she not only assisted but lodged, took a walk into the country
[Part Second] [3617] with a book in her hand. It was one of those cloudless days which
[Part Second] [3620] a mile or two until she came to much higher ground than that of the
[Part Second] [3622] and coming to a stile Sue paused there, to finish the page she was
[Part Second] [3626] On the other side of the stile, in the footpath, she beheld a
[Part Second] [3627] foreigner with black hair and a sallow face, sitting on the grass
[Part Second] [3628] beside a large square board whereon were fixed, as closely as they
[Part Second] [3629] could stand, a number of plaster statuettes, some of them bronzed,
[Part Second] [3632] comprised divinities of a very different character from those the
[Part Second] [3633] girl was accustomed to see portrayed, among them being a Venus of
[Part Second] [3634] standard pattern, a Diana, and, of the other sex, Apollo, Bacchus,
[Part Second] [3638] distinctness; and being almost in a line between herself and the
[Part Second] [3642] that agreed with his appearance. In a moment he dexterously lifted
[Part Second] [3646] smaller wares--the busts of kings and queens, then a minstrel, then
[Part Second] [3647] a winged Cupid. She shook her head.
[Part Second] [3661] Being of a nervous temperament she trembled at her enterprise.
[Part Second] [3663] jacket. After carrying them along a little way openly an idea came
[Part Second] [3667] armful of green stuff gathered by a zealous lover of nature.
[Part Second] [3670] said. But she was still in a trembling state, and seemed almost to
[Part Second] [3676] one, and round a corner to the side door of the establishment to
[Part Second] [3678] own chamber, and she at once attempted to lock them in a box that was
[Part Second] [3680] them in large sheets of brown paper, and stood them on the floor in a
[Part Second] [3684] spectacles, dressed almost like an abbess; a dab at Ritual, as become
[Part Second] [3685] one of her business, and a worshipper at the ceremonial church of St.
[Part Second] [3687] had begun to attend. She was the daughter of a clergyman in reduced
[Part Second] [3689] before this date, she boldly avoided penury by taking over a little
[Part Second] [3691] proportions. She wore a cross and beads round her neck as her only
[Part Second] [3695] respond for a moment, entered the room just as the other was hastily
[Part Second] [3696] putting a string round each parcel.
[Part Second] [3707] is it? How bulky!" She tore a little hole, about as big as a wafer,
[Part Second] [3711] "Oh--I bought them of a travelling man who sells casts--"
[Part Second] [3725] passing fancy created in Sue a great zest for unpacking her objects
[Part Second] [3728] of figures on the chest of drawers, a candle on each side of them,
[Part Second] [3730] reading a book she had taken from her box, which Miss Fontover knew
[Part Second] [3731] nothing of. It was a volume of Gibbon, and she read the chapter
[Part Second] [3734] there happening to be a Calvary print hanging between them, and,
[Part Second] [3736] withdrew another book from her box--a volume of verse--and turned to
[Part Second] [3752] only discernible now as a Latin cross, the figure thereon being
[Part Second] [3757] books at a not very distant spot in the same city. Being Saturday
[Part Second] [3772] Till the sounds rolled with reverent loudness, as a book was heard
[Part Second] [3783] He was a handy man at his trade, an all-round man, as artizans in
[Part Second] [3786] merges in that leafage, as if it were a degradation to do the second
[Part Second] [3789] lettering monuments or tombstones, and take a pleasure in the change
[Part Second] [3792] The next time that he saw her was when he was on a ladder executing
[Part Second] [3793] a job of this sort inside one of the churches. There was a short
[Part Second] [3803] and thought what a help such an Anglican would have been to him in
[Part Second] [3810] interest in her had shown itself to be unmistakably of a sexual kind,
[Part Second] [3821] experiencing a fearful bliss in doing what was erratic, informal, and
[Part Second] [3829] passion. A voice whispered that, though he desired to know her, he
[Part Second] [3834] of a man who was licensed by the laws of his country to love Arabella
[Part Second] [3835] and none other unto his life's end, was a pretty bad second beginning
[Part Second] [3836] when the man was bent on such a course as Jude purposed. This
[Part Second] [3838] he was at work in a neighbouring village church alone, he felt it to
[Part Second] [3845] I can see that she is exceptionally bright; and it is partly a wish
[Part Second] [3846] for intellectual sympathy, and a craving for loving-kindness in my
[Part Second] [3852] On an afternoon at this time a young girl entered the stone-mason's
[Part Second] [3856] "That's a nice girl," said one of the men known as Uncle Joe.
[Part Second] [3869] received with a look of disappointment, and went away immediately.
[Part Second] [3874] had no longer any thought of a conscientious avoidance of her, and
[Part Second] [3876] his lodging he found a note from her--a first note--one of those
[Part Second] [3879] The very unconsciousness of a looming drama which is shown in such
[Part Second] [3881] them, when such a drama follows, and they are read over by the purple
[Part Second] [3894] A cold sweat overspread Jude at the news that she was going away.
[Part Second] [3895] That was a contingency he had never thought of, and it spurred him
[Part Second] [3900] When he had despatched the note by a boy he regretted that in his
[Part Second] [3905] not seem respectable to a dear girl like Sue. However, it could not
[Part Second] [3906] be helped now, and he moved towards the point a few minutes before
[Part Second] [3910] not late. He saw a figure on the other side, which turned out to
[Part Second] [3924] with the bashfulness of a lover. "But I thought it would save time
[Part Second] [3927] "Oh--I don't mind that," she said with the freedom of a friend. "I
[Part Second] [3943] Phillotson? A parson somewhere about the county I think he is."
[Part Second] [3945] "No--I only know of one Mr. Phillotson. He lives a little way out in
[Part Second] [3946] the country, at Lumsdon. He's a village schoolmaster."
[Part Second] [3948] "Ah! I wonder if he's the same. Surely it is impossible! Only a
[Part Second] [3956] wherein the great Phillotson had failed? He would have had a day of
[Part Second] [3961] "As we are going to take a walk, suppose we go and call upon him?"
[Part Second] [3964] She agreed, and they went along up a hill, and through some prettily
[Part Second] [3967] inquired of a person in the street if Mr. Phillotson was likely to
[Part Second] [3968] be at home, and were informed that he was always at home. A knock
[Part Second] [3969] brought him to the school-house door, with a candle in his hand and a
[Part Second] [3976] since their parting. It created in him at the same time a sympathy
[Part Second] [3989] "Yes. I was there a short time. And is this an old pupil, too?"
[Part Second] [3999] scheme was to be a university man and enter the Church--that a degree
[Part Second] [4000] was the necessary hall-mark of one who wanted to do anything as a
[Part Second] [4011] They entered the parlour of the school-house, where there was a lamp
[Part Second] [4012] with a paper shade, which threw the light down on three or four
[Part Second] [4017] to be a spare and thoughtful personage of five-and-forty, with a
[Part Second] [4018] thin-lipped, somewhat refined mouth, a slightly stooping habit, and
[Part Second] [4019] a black frock coat, which from continued frictions shone a little at
[Part Second] [4026] enter it as a licentiate. Meanwhile, he said, he was comfortable in
[Part Second] [4027] his present position, though he was in want of a pupil-teacher.
[Part Second] [4032] find what a revelation of woman his cousin was to him. She was so
[Part Second] [4043] you do otherwise than cling to a city in whose history such men as
[Part Second] [4047] world? ... What a funny reason for caring to stay! I should never
[Part Second] [4063] all to bits with her heel--a horrid thing!"
[Part Second] [4084] school? If you like it, and go to a training college, and become a
[Part Second] [4095] To keep Sue Bridehead near him was now a desire which operated
[Part Second] [4097] for Lumsdon, fearing to trust to the persuasive effects of a note
[Part Second] [4098] only. The school-master was unprepared for such a proposal.
[Part Second] [4100] "What I rather wanted was a second year's transfer, as it is called,"
[Part Second] [4103] adopting teaching as a profession?"
[Part Second] [4108] he said he would engage her, assuring Jude as a friend that unless
[Part Second] [4111] training in a normal school would be the second stage, her time would
[Part Second] [4114] The day after this visit Phillotson received a letter from Jude,
[Part Second] [4117] she had agreed to come. It did not occur for a moment to the
[Part Second] [4129] house in which his teacher Sue had a lodging. The arrangement had
[Part Second] [4130] been concluded very quickly. A pupil-teacher who was to have been
[Part Second] [4136] late, Miss Bridehead was not exactly a novice, and Phillotson thought
[Part Second] [4143] It was a little over half-past eight o'clock in the morning and he
[Part Second] [4145] follow. At twenty minutes to nine she did cross, a light hat tossed
[Part Second] [4146] on her head; and he watched her as a curiosity. A new emanation,
[Part Second] [4147] which had nothing to do with her skill as a teacher, seemed to
[Part Second] [4153] and some article in the Code made it necessary that a respectable,
[Part Second] [4158] down with her in a room where Mrs. Hawes, the widow at whose house
[Part Second] [4164] at--she would involuntarily glance up with a little inquiring smile
[Part Second] [4167] not really thinking of the arithmetic at all, but of her, in a novel
[Part Second] [4171] For a few weeks their work had gone on with a monotony which in
[Part Second] [4172] itself was a delight to him. Then it happened that the children were
[Part Second] [4174] shape of a model of Jerusalem, to which schools were admitted at
[Part Second] [4175] a penny a head in the interests of education. They marched along
[Part Second] [4183] and the proprietor, with a fine religious philanthropy written on his
[Part Second] [4184] features, walked round it with a pointer in his hand, showing the
[Part Second] [4188] was a large mound like a tumulus, and on the mound a little white
[Part Second] [4191] "I think," said Sue to the schoolmaster, as she stood with him a
[Part Second] [4192] little in the background, "that this model, elaborate as it is, is a
[Part Second] [4207] behind the group of children clustered round the model a young man
[Part Second] [4208] in a white flannel jacket, his form being bent so low in his intent
[Part Second] [4218] with a glad flush of embarrassment. "These are your school-children,
[Part Second] [4222] examine it for hours, but I have only a few minutes, unfortunately;
[Part Second] [4223] for I am in the middle of a job out here."
[Part Second] [4230] called a clever girl--there are too many of that sort now!" answered
[Part Second] [4237] "That's a good Jude--I know YOU believe in me!" She impulsively
[Part Second] [4238] seized his hand, and leaving a reproachful look on the schoolmaster
[Part Second] [4239] turned away to Jude, her voice revealing a tremor which she herself
[Part Second] [4242] this momentary revelation of feeling, and what a complication she was
[Part Second] [4246] to tire of it soon, and a little later in the afternoon they were all
[Part Second] [4249] street towards the country beside Phillotson and Sue, and a sad,
[Part Second] [4258] surprised to find upon it, skilfully drawn in chalk, a perspective
[Part Second] [4280] had come. The effect upon her timidity was such that she uttered a
[Part Second] [4281] cry of fright. Phillotson, with a strange instinct of solicitude
[Part Second] [4284] but when the inspector had gone there was a reaction, and she was
[Part Second] [4305] thought Sue would like to see him, and made a hasty tea, he set
[Part Second] [4315] him, but he knew in a moment that they were Sue and Phillotson. The
[Part Second] [4317] been paying a visit to the vicar--probably on some business connected
[Part Second] [4323] sank into the hedge like one struck with a blight. There he remained
[Part Second] [4334] twenty years her senior, but many a happy marriage had been made
[Part Second] [4345] following Sunday he went to see her--a visit which was the result of
[Part Second] [4346] a victorious struggle against his inclination to turn aside to the
[Part Second] [4347] village of Lumsdon and obtain a miserable interview with his cousin,
[Part Second] [4351] His aunt was now unable to leave her bed, and a great part of Jude's
[Part Second] [4353] little bakery business had been sold to a neighbour, and with the
[Part Second] [4355] necessaries and more, a widow of the same village living with her and
[Part Second] [4357] for him to leave that he obtained a quiet talk with her, and his
[Part Second] [4377] mother's family; and she'll look with no favour upon a working chap
[Part Second] [4378] like you--a townish girl as she's become by now. I never cared much
[Part Second] [4379] about her. A pert little thing, that's what she was too often, with
[Part Second] [4386] "She was a little child then."
[Part Second] [4388] "She was twelve if a day."
[Part Second] [4390] "Well--of course. But now she's older she's of a thoughtful,
[Part Second] [4393] "Jude!" cried his aunt, springing up in bed. "Don't you be a fool
[Part Second] [4398] "Your marrying that woman Arabella was about as bad a thing as a man
[Part Second] [4401] there'll be a worse thing if you, tied and bound as you be, should
[Part Second] [4402] have a fancy for Sue. If your cousin is civil to you, take her
[Part Second] [4403] civility for what it is worth. But anything more than a relation's
[Part Second] [4409] A relief was afforded to him by the entry of the companion and nurse
[Part Second] [4411] she began a commentary on past years, introducing Sue Bridehead as
[Part Second] [4412] a character in her recollections. She described what an odd little
[Part Second] [4413] maid Sue had been when a pupil at the village school across the green
[Part Second] [4417] sash"; how she recited "Excelsior," "There was a sound of revelry by
[Part Second] [4432] Jude, had the same trick as a child of seeming to see things in the
[Part Second] [4437] "She was not exactly a tomboy, you know; but she could do things that
[Part Second] [4438] only boys do, as a rule. I've seen her hit in and steer down the
[Part Second] [4440] a file of twenty moving along against the sky like shapes painted
[Part Second] [4444] again. But 'a wouldn't come."
[Part Second] [4448] that day with a heavy heart. He would fain have glanced into the
[Part Second] [4453] residence here were standing in a group in their best clothes. Jude
[Part Second] [4454] was startled by a salute from one of them:
[Part Second] [4461] to us about as a little boy! Is it all you expected of it?"
[Part Second] [4469] "You are wrong, John; there is more going on than meets the eye of a
[Part Second] [4470] man walking through the streets. It is a unique centre of thought
[Part Second] [4474] of a well-known writer."
[Part Second] [4477] nothing of it the hour or two I was there; so I went in and had a pot
[Part Second] [4478] o' beer, and a penny loaf, and a ha'porth o' cheese, and waited till
[Part Second] [4479] it was time to come along home. You've j'ined a college by this
[Part Second] [4496] figure, more or less himself, was steeping his mind in a sublimation
[Part Second] [4498] to a seat in the paradise of the learned. He was set regarding his
[Part Second] [4499] prospects in a cold northern light. He had lately felt that he
[Part Second] [4503] necessary for thorough application. He felt that he wanted a
[Part Second] [4504] coach--a friend at his elbow to tell him in a moment what sometimes
[Part Second] [4505] would occupy him a weary month in extracting from unanticipative,
[Part Second] [4508] It was decidedly necessary to consider facts a little more closely
[Part Second] [4510] up his spare hours in a vague labour called "private study" without
[Part Second] [4522] who had been pointed out as the head of a particular college, walking
[Part Second] [4523] in the public path of a parklike enclosure near the spot at which
[Part Second] [4528] incident to think what a wise thing it would be for him to state his
[Part Second] [4544] strangers in such a way? I may be an impostor, an idle scamp, a man
[Part Second] [4545] with a bad character, for all that they know to the contrary...
[Part Second] [4552] Phillotson was giving up the school near Christminster, for a larger
[Part Second] [4554] affect his cousin; whether, as seemed possible, it was a practical
[Part Second] [4555] move of the schoolmaster's towards a larger income, in view of a
[Part Second] [4563] entirely on himself, as formerly, with the added gloom of a weakened
[Part Second] [4567] do this a good deal of coaching would be necessary, and much natural
[Part Second] [4568] ability. It was next to impossible that a man reading on his own
[Part Second] [4575] a material kind. With the help of his information he began to reckon
[Part Second] [4578] able to save money, fifteen years must elapse before he could be in a
[Part Second] [4579] position to forward testimonials to the head of a college and advance
[Part Second] [4580] to a matriculation examination. The undertaking was hopeless.
[Part Second] [4582] He saw what a curious and cunning glamour the neighbourhood of the
[Part Second] [4588] fatuousness of Crusoe over his big boat, "and the rest is but a
[Part Second] [4595] the touch of a reasoned inquiry. He looked back at himself along the
[Part Second] [4605] painful details of his awakening to a sense of his limitations should
[Part Second] [4607] a little part of the miserable struggle in which he had been engaged
[Part Second] [4612] went up to an octagonal chamber in the lantern of a singularly built
[Part Second] [4629] heart, and whose loss was now a maddening torture. But for this blow
[Part Second] [4631] have renounced his ambitions with a smile. Without her it was
[Part Second] [4634] no doubt passed through a similar intellectual disappointment to
[Part Second] [4643] sitting at table when his landlady brought up a letter that had just
[Part Second] [4644] arrived for him. She laid it down as if impressed with a sense of
[Part Second] [4656] from your description of yourself as a working-man, I
[Part Second] [4657] venture to think that you will have a much better chance
[Part Second] [4669] that before. He knew it was true. Yet it seemed a hard slap after
[Part Second] [4672] go downstairs and into the street. He stood at a bar and tossed off
[Part Second] [4674] came to a spot called The Fourways in the middle of the city, gazing
[Part Second] [4675] abstractedly at the groups of people like one in a trance, till,
[Part Second] [4679] an inch and a half on the balls of his toes, smiled, and looking
[Part Second] [4680] humorously at Jude, said, "You've had a wet, young man."
[Part Second] [4698] He began to see that the town life was a book of humanity infinitely
[Part Second] [4703] of students and teachers, who did know both in a way, were not
[Part Second] [4704] Christminster in a local sense at all.
[Part Second] [4707] he came to a public hall, where a promenade concert was in progress.
[Part Second] [4711] real Christminster life. A band was playing, and the crowd walked
[Part Second] [4712] about and jostled each other, and every now and then a man got upon
[Part Second] [4713] a platform and sang a comic song.
[Part Second] [4717] to gain a little joy. At ten o'clock he came away, choosing a
[Part Second] [4722] lump of chalk which as a workman he usually carried there, and wrote
[Part Second] [4734] laughed at his self-conceit. But the laugh was not a healthy one.
[Part Second] [4737] He saw himself as a fool indeed.
[Part Second] [4740] proceed to his work. Whenever he felt reconciled to his fate as a
[Part Second] [4746] low-ceiled tavern up a court which was well known to certain worthies
[Part Second] [4749] that he was at bottom a vicious character, of whom it was hopeless to
[Part Second] [4754] spent, and he had not eaten anything the whole day except a biscuit.
[Part Second] [4756] and philosophy of a man who has been drinking long and slowly,
[Part Second] [4757] and made friends with several: to wit, Tinker Taylor, a decayed
[Part Second] [4758] church-ironmonger who appeared to have been of a religious turn in
[Part Second] [4759] earlier years, but was somewhat blasphemous now; also a red-nosed
[Part Second] [4761] Uncle Joe. There were present, too, some clerks, and a gown- and
[Part Second] [4765] of betting circles; a travelling actor from the theatre, and two
[Part Second] [4767] they had slipped in by stealth to meet a man about bull-pups,
[Part Second] [4775] respected, were exchanged in a large-minded and disinterested manner.
[Part Second] [4778] a strong-brained fellow in liquor, threw in his remarks somewhat
[Part Second] [4780] years, everything the others said turned upon his tongue, by a sort
[Part Second] [4785] "I don't care a damn," he was saying, "for any provost, warden,
[Part Second] [4787] I know is that I'd lick 'em on their own ground if they'd give me a
[Part Second] [4788] chance, and show 'em a few things they are not up to yet!"
[Part Second] [4795] saw there was more to be learnt outside a book than in; and I took my
[Part Second] [4799] a scholar as to pitch yer hopes so high as that, why not give us a
[Part Second] [4801] That was how they once put it to a chap down in my country."
[Part Second] [4815] "Yes--have a try!" said the surplice-maker.
[Part Second] [4821] "I'll swear I can!" said Jude. "Well, come now, stand me a small
[Part Second] [4824] "That's a fair offer," said the undergraduate, throwing down the
[Part Second] [4827] The barmaid concocted the mixture with the bearing of a person
[Part Second] [4836] however, had not the slightest conception of a single word.
[Part Second] [4838] A silence reigned among the rest in the bar, and the maid stood
[Part Second] [4863] went on in a moment in a revived voice, raising it as he neared the
[Part Second] [4864] end with the manner of a priest leading a congregation:
[Part Second] [4886] queer characters, feared a riot, and came outside the counter; but
[Part Second] [4888] the scene, the door slamming with a dull thud behind him.
[Part Second] [4893] the influence of a childlike yearning for the one being in the world
[Part Second] [4897] Lumsdon, and reaching the cottage, saw that a light was burning in
[Part Second] [4898] a downstairs room, which he assumed, rightly as it happened, to be
[Part Second] [4905] the apartment, and in a second or two the door was unlocked and
[Part Second] [4906] opened, and Sue appeared with a candle in her hand.
[Part Second] [4925] sober senses, could only say, "Dear, dear Sue!" in a voice broken by
[Part Second] [4933] Almost immediately he fell into a heavy slumber, and did not wake
[Part Second] [4936] of a right mind. She knew the worst of him--the very worst. How
[Part Second] [4946] him a note of dismissal from his employer; and having packed up he
[Part Second] [4947] turned his back upon the city that had been such a thorn in his
[Part Second] [4956] his waistcoat, and having gone out of the town a mile or two, slept
[Part Second] [4957] under a rick that night. At dawn he rose, shook off the hayseeds and
[Part Second] [4959] road up the hill to the downs, which had been visible to him a long
[Part Second] [4966] what a poor Christ he made. Seeing a trough of water near he bathed
[Part Second] [4973] a struggle with material things.
[Part Second] [4975] "Yes," said Jude heavily. "I think I must have a little rest."
[Part Second] [4979] asleep for a short while, and when he awoke it was as if he had
[Part Second] [4987] If he had been a woman he must have screamed under the nervous
[Part Second] [4993] A mournful wind blew through the trees, and sounded in the chimney
[Part Second] [4998] always the outdoor wind that made the deep murmurs; it was a voice.
[Part Second] [4999] He guessed its origin in a moment or two; the curate was praying with
[Part Second] [5001] Presently the sounds ceased, and a step seemed to cross the landing.
[Part Second] [5004] The step made for his door, which was open, and a man looked in.
[Part Second] [5005] It was a young clergyman.
[Part Second] [5008] you more than once. Well, here I am, just come home; a fellow gone
[Part Second] [5016] till now, been merely a portion of the general plan of advancement.
[Part Second] [5018] "Now I know I have been a fool, and that folly is with me," added
[Part Second] [5025] The curate, who was a new man to this neighbourhood, had grown deeply
[Part Second] [5026] interested, and at last he said: "If you feel a real call to the
[Part Second] [5028] for it is that of a thoughtful and educated man, you might enter the
[Part Second] [5029] Church as a licentiate. Only you must make up your mind to avoid
[Part Third] [5053] It was a new idea--the ecclesiastical and altruistic life as distinct
[Part Third] [5054] from the intellectual and emulative life. A man could preach and
[Part Third] [5059] but a mundane ambition masquerading in a surplice. He feared that
[Part Third] [5061] originated in, a social unrest which had no foundation in the nobler
[Part Third] [5065] carelessly with his wife through the days of his vanity was a more
[Part Third] [5069] in any probability rise to a higher grade through all his career than
[Part Third] [5071] or city slum--that might have a touch of goodness and greatness in
[Part Third] [5072] it; that might be true religion, and a purgatorial course worthy of
[Part Third] [5073] being followed by a remorseful man.
[Part Third] [5078] few days, the _coup de grce_ to his intellectual career--a career
[Part Third] [5079] which had extended over the greater part of a dozen years. He did
[Part Third] [5083] to be regarded as a social failure, a returned purchase, by the
[Part Third] [5087] The human interest of the new intention--and a human interest is
[Part Third] [5089] by a letter from Sue, bearing a fresh postmark. She evidently
[Part Third] [5091] than that she had passed some sort of examination for a Queen's
[Part Third] [5092] Scholarship, and was going to enter a training college at Melchester
[Part Third] [5094] influence. There was a theological college at Melchester; Melchester
[Part Third] [5095] was a quiet and soothing place, almost entirely ecclesiastical in its
[Part Third] [5096] tone; a spot where worldly learning and intellectual smartness had no
[Part Third] [5098] perhaps be more highly estimated than a brilliancy which he did not.
[Part Third] [5100] As it would be necessary that he should continue for a time to work
[Part Third] [5109] a friend and kinswoman.
[Part Third] [5116] necessary terms at a theological college.
[Part Third] [5123] he should postpone his arrival for a month or so, till the days had
[Part Third] [5128] said a word about her relations with Mr. Phillotson.
[Part Third] [5130] Suddenly, however, quite a passionate letter arrived from Sue.
[Part Third] [5136] herself in being strict to a degree. It was Mr. Phillotson who had
[Part Third] [5142] Melchester with a lighter heart than he had known for months.
[Part Third] [5144] This being the turning over a new leaf he duly looked about for
[Part Third] [5145] a temperance hotel, and found a little establishment of that
[Part Third] [5156] he walked round. He took it as a good omen that numerous blocks
[Part Third] [5158] undergoing restoration or repair to a considerable extent. It seemed
[Part Third] [5160] exercise of forethought on the part of a ruling Power, that he might
[Part Third] [5161] find plenty to do in the art he practised while waiting for a call to
[Part Third] [5164] Then a wave of warmth came over him as he thought how near he now
[Part Third] [5173] an ancient edifice of the fifteenth century, once a palace, now
[Part Third] [5174] a training-school, with mullioned and transomed windows, and a
[Part Third] [5175] courtyard in front shut in from the road by a wall. Jude opened the
[Part Third] [5177] cousin, he was gingerly admitted to a waiting-room, and in a few
[Part Third] [5180] Though she had been here such a short while, she was not as he had
[Part Third] [5189] "You don't--think me a demoralized wretch--for coming to you as I
[Part Third] [5196] She wore a murrey-coloured gown with a little lace collar. It was
[Part Third] [5200] the air of a woman clipped and pruned by severe discipline,
[Part Third] [5207] sign that Sue regarded him as a lover, or ever would do so, now that
[Part Third] [5215] to buy her a little present of some sort, and then she confessed,
[Part Third] [5217] kept on very short allowances in the college, and a dinner, tea, and
[Part Third] [5220] afforded, which was not much. The place, however, gave them a
[Part Third] [5221] delightful opportunity for a _tte--tte_, nobody else being in the
[Part Third] [5228] a young person to whom restraint was new. To all this he listened;
[Part Third] [5234] fingers of a glove she was purchasing.
[Part Third] [5238] "Yes. So would yours be if they held a mallet and chisel all day."
[Part Third] [5240] "I don't dislike it, you know. I think it is noble to see a man's
[Part Third] [5244] and Mr. Phillotson will use his influence to get me a big school."
[Part Third] [5246] She had touched the subject at last. "I had a suspicion, a fear,"
[Part Third] [5250] "Now don't be such a silly boy!"
[Part Third] [5280] plan being that we shall then take a large double school in a great
[Part Third] [5282] do, and make a good income between us."
[Part Third] [5300] whatever. I have a perfect right to see you when I want to; and I
[Part Third] [5307] She was something of a riddle to him, and he let the subject drift
[Part Third] [5312] station," she answered, a remnant of vexation still in her voice.
[Part Third] [5319] have done these last few years! The cathedral was a very good place
[Part Third] [5332] He took her to the gate and they parted. Jude had a conviction that
[Part Third] [5337] so easy to get as at Christminster, there being, as a rule, less
[Part Third] [5343] overhauled, to be largely replaced by new. It might be a labour of
[Part Third] [5345] skill with the mallet and chisel to feel that it would be a matter of
[Part Third] [5348] The lodgings he took near the Close Gate would not have disgraced a
[Part Third] [5349] curate, the rent representing a higher percentage on his wages than
[Part Third] [5353] her time, and the parlour downstairs bore a clock on the mantelpiece
[Part Third] [5358] had executed with his own hands; and he was deemed a satisfactory
[Part Third] [5362] and with these his studies were recommenced in a different spirit and
[Part Third] [5363] direction from his former course. As a relaxation from the Fathers,
[Part Third] [5365] many other modern lights. He hired a harmonium, set it up in his
[Part Third] [5383] "No. Quite otherwise. It is a classic building--Corinthian, I
[Part Third] [5384] think; with a lot of pictures."
[Part Third] [5390] a facet reflecting a sparkle to Jude, and he did not venture to
[Part Third] [5395] emergence in a nunlike simplicity of costume that was rather enforced
[Part Third] [5398] basis of a beautiful crystallization. Nobody stared at Sue, because
[Part Third] [5400] only himself knew the charms those habiliments subdued. A matter
[Part Third] [5401] of ten pounds spent in a drapery-shop, which had no connection
[Part Third] [5404] them into a compartment all by themselves.
[Part Third] [5406] "That's a good intention wasted!" said she.
[Part Third] [5418] wait for him before a Lely or Reynolds. It was evident that her
[Part Third] [5419] cousin deeply interested her, as one might be interested in a man
[Part Third] [5420] puzzling out his way along a labyrinth from which one had one's self
[Part Third] [5423] When they came out a long time still remained to them and Jude
[Part Third] [5427] Melchester, at a station about seven miles off. Sue, who was
[Part Third] [5433] on, Jude cutting from a little covert a long walking-stick for Sue
[Part Third] [5434] as tall as herself, with a great crook, which made her look like a
[Part Third] [5435] shepherdess. About half-way on their journey they crossed a main
[Part Third] [5437] End. They paused, and looked up and down it for a moment, and
[Part Third] [5444] They had walked a good distance altogether, and if they could not
[Part Third] [5445] reach the other station it would be rather awkward. For a long
[Part Third] [5447] turnip-land; but presently they came to a sheepfold, and next to the
[Part Third] [5449] was his mother's and his, pointing to a little dip ahead from which a
[Part Third] [5453] without a single tooth, to whom they were as civil as strangers can
[Part Third] [5457] "A nice little cottage," said Jude.
[Part Third] [5465] said with a deprecating wave of the hand; "bide here as long as ye
[Part Third] [5475] worse." He turned to Jude and asked privately: "Be you a married
[Part Third] [5493] "You only think you like it; you don't: you are quite a product of
[Part Third] [5494] civilization," said Jude, a recollection of her engagement reviving
[Part Third] [5495] his soreness a little.
[Part Third] [5517] be immured rose before Sue's eyes, she looked a little scared. "I
[Part Third] [5523] said quickly, searching her pocket. "It is a new little photograph
[Part Third] [5538] formed a very mixed community, which included the daughters of
[Part Third] [5544] "She went out with her young man," said a second-year's student, who
[Part Third] [5548] "She said he was her cousin," observed a youthful new girl.
[Part Third] [5550] "That excuse has been made a little too often in this school to be
[Part Third] [5555] a lamentable seduction of one of the pupils who had made the same
[Part Third] [5557] created a scandal, and the management had consequently been rough on
[Part Third] [5563] At a quarter past nine the seventy stood up to sing the "Evening
[Part Third] [5568] kissed by such a kindly-faced young men. Hardly one among them
[Part Third] [5577] remain what they are. They formed a pretty, suggestive, pathetic
[Part Third] [5586] doing so gave a final glance at Sue's cot, which remained empty, and
[Part Third] [5589] not the least conspicuous among them. Sue's table had a moderate
[Part Third] [5597] "One--the middle-aged man," said a student in the next bed--"is the
[Part Third] [5602] "He is a friend, or was. She has never told his name."
[Part Third] [5610] "Quite. He was a young man with a black beard."
[Part Third] [5620] to find it still without a tenant. After the early lessons by
[Part Third] [5632] been severely reprimanded, and ordered to a solitary room for a week,
[Part Third] [5636] severe. A round robin was prepared and sent in to the principal,
[Part Third] [5637] asking for a remission of Sue's punishment. No notice was taken.
[Part Third] [5666] with a lantern, every bush and shrub being examined, but she was
[Part Third] [5668] and on reflection he said that he remembered hearing a sort of
[Part Third] [5672] "She must have walked through the river!" said a mistress.
[Part Third] [5685] that the too excitable girl had waded through a depth of water
[Part Third] [5699] Twenty-ninth Volume of Pusey's Library of the Fathers, a set of books
[Part Third] [5700] which he had purchased of a second-hand dealer at a price that seemed
[Part Third] [5717] door being opened merely by a knob which anybody could turn, as
[Part Third] [5720] counterparts they were! He unlatched the door of his room, heard a
[Part Third] [5721] stealthy rustle on the dark stairs, and in a moment she appeared in
[Part Third] [5723] was clammy as a marine deity, and that her clothes clung to her like
[Part Third] [5753] room for it to be otherwise. He opened a drawer, took out his best
[Part Third] [5754] dark suit, and giving the garments a shake, said, "Now, how long
[Part Third] [5760] down. A clock struck half-past seven, and he returned. Sitting in
[Part Third] [5761] his only arm-chair he saw a slim and fragile being masquerading as
[Part Third] [5762] himself on a Sunday, so pathetic in her defencelessness that his
[Part Third] [5765] but only for a moment.
[Part Third] [5768] my things hanging there? Yet what nonsense! They are only a woman's
[Part Third] [5770] sick! Will you dry my clothes now? Please do, Jude, and I'll get a
[Part Third] [5778] nearest public-house, whence he returned with a little bottle in his
[Part Third] [5784] gasped a little, but gulped it down, and lay back in the armchair.
[Part Third] [5788] her head nodded, and she ceased. She was in a sound sleep. Jude,
[Part Third] [5789] dying of anxiety lest she should have caught a chill which might
[Part Third] [5791] softly went nearer to her, and observed that a warm flush now rosed
[Part Third] [5794] and saw in her almost a divinity.
[Part Third] [5809] wanted to know if you would require supper. I see you've a young
[Part Third] [5813] supper up on a tray, and I'll have a cup of tea as well."
[Part Third] [5821] Sue's clothes anew; but they were far from dry. A thick woollen
[Part Third] [5822] gown, he found, held a deal of water. So he hung them up again, and
[Part Third] [5844] saved a severe illness by resting there. Don't be frightened. I'm
[Part Third] [5856] "You called me a creature of civilization, or something, didn't you?"
[Part Third] [5857] she said, breaking a silence. "It was very odd you should have done
[Part Third] [5862] "Well, because it is provokingly wrong. I am a sort of negation of
[Part Third] [5865] "You are very philosophical. 'A negation' is profound talking."
[Part Third] [5867] "Is it? Do I strike you as being learned?" she asked, with a touch
[Part Third] [5870] "No--not learned. Only you don't talk quite like a girl--well, a
[Part Third] [5881] "You have read more than I," he said with a sigh. "How came you to
[Part Third] [5885] entirely shaped by what people call a peculiarity in me. I have no
[Part Third] [5890] man short of a sensual savage--will molest a woman by day or night,
[Part Third] [5891] at home or abroad, unless she invites him. Until she says by a look
[Part Third] [5894] was eighteen I formed a friendly intimacy with an undergraduate at
[Part Third] [5895] Christminster, and he taught me a great deal, and lent me books which
[Part Third] [5903] "You saw a good deal of him, I suppose?"
[Part Third] [5908] I found he meant a different thing from what I meant. He wanted me
[Part Third] [5911] so. We shared a sitting-room for fifteen months; and he became a
[Part Third] [5916] often, he said. He came home merely to die. His death caused a
[Part Third] [5919] to his funeral, and was his only mourner. He left me a little
[Part Third] [5925] "Ah--now you are angry with me!" she said, a contralto note of
[Part Third] [5931] "Well, I invested his money, poor fellow, in a bubble scheme, and
[Part Third] [5975] a voice of such extraordinary tenderness that it hardly seemed to
[Part Third] [5998] I should seem so--such a hypocrite."
[Part Third] [6001] remember that I hope to be a useful minister some day."
[Part Third] [6014] "I have no respect for Christminster whatever, except, in a qualified
[Part Third] [6020] be sure, at times one couldn't help having a sneaking liking for
[Part Third] [6021] the traditions of the old faith, as preserved by a section of the
[Part Third] [6029] "Sue, you are not a good friend of mine to talk like that!"
[Part Third] [6043] were founded; a man with a passion for learning, but no money, or
[Part Third] [6057] "It is a place full of fetishists and ghost-seers!"
[Part Third] [6073] putting on flippancy to hide real feeling, a common trick with her.
[Part Third] [6076] "There's a sarcasm in that which is rather unpleasant to me, Sue.
[Part Third] [6077] Now will you do what I want you to? At this time I read a chapter,
[Part Third] [6087] she replied, in the tone of a child who was going to be good for ever
[Part Third] [6088] after, turning her back upon him accordingly. A small Bible other
[Part Third] [6093] "will you let me make you a NEW New Testament, like the one I made
[Part Third] [6107] "H'm!" said Jude, with a sense of sacrilege.
[Part Third] [6109] "And what a literary enormity this is," she said, as she glanced
[Part Third] [6125] moist. "I WISH I had a friend here to support me; but nobody is ever
[Part Third] [6139] "Well then, let it be! You make such a personal matter of
[Part Third] [6146] shook hands like cronies in a tavern, and Jude saw the absurdity of
[Part Third] [6147] quarrelling on such a hypothetical subject, and she the silliness of
[Part Third] [6179] seemed to be able to do so easily of his, what a comrade she would
[Part Third] [6189] About six o'clock he awoke completely, and lighting a candle, found
[Part Third] [6190] that her clothes were dry. Her chair being a far more comfortable
[Part Third] [6192] as a new bun and boyish as a Ganymede. Placing the garments by her
[Part Third] [6224] training-school, who has asked me to visit her. She has a school
[Part Third] [6229] At the last moment he persuaded her to let him make her a cup of
[Part Third] [6230] coffee, in a portable apparatus he kept in his room for use on rising
[Part Third] [6233] "Now a dew-bit to eat with it," he said; "and off we go. You can
[Part Third] [6234] have a regular breakfast when you get there."
[Part Third] [6237] station. As they departed along the street a head was thrust out
[Part Third] [6246] train came up. "One is a warm one, the other a cold one!"
[Part Third] [6261] Melchester was a dismal place enough for Jude that Sunday of her
[Part Third] [6263] cathedral services. The next morning there came a letter from her,
[Part Third] [6271] me that when you were out of sight I felt what a cruel and
[Part Third] [6285] rendered a long residence with a female friend quite unnecessary for
[Part Third] [6287] it had come to a conflict between Phillotson and himself for the
[Part Third] [6293] After the lapse of a few days he found himself hoping that she would
[Part Third] [6296] should pay her a visit some Sunday, the distance being under eighteen
[Part Third] [6299] He expected a reply on the second morning after despatching his
[Part Third] [6301] not stop. This was Saturday, and in a feverish state of anxiety
[Part Third] [6307] written for her in such a case. Conjectures were put an end to by
[Part Third] [6310] was as vacant as a desert, most of the inhabitants having gathered
[Part Third] [6314] A little girl opened the door. "Miss Bridehead is up-stairs," she
[Part Third] [6319] "Only a little--not very."
[Part Third] [6321] Jude entered and ascended. On reaching the landing a voice told him
[Part Third] [6323] doorway, and found her lying in a little bed in a room a dozen feet
[Part Third] [6329] "No--it wasn't that!" she answered. "I did catch a bad cold--but I
[Part Third] [6340] "They not only won't have me, but they gave me a parting piece of
[Part Third] [6365] often! And I never supposed you thought of such a thing as marrying
[Part Third] [6366] me till the other evening; when I began to fancy you did love me a
[Part Third] [6370] The speech seemed a little forced and unreal, and they regarded each
[Part Third] [6371] other with a mutual distress.
[Part Third] [6375] as a sweetheart without saying a word, and leaving me to discover it
[Part Third] [6382] strangers prevented a sense of relationship, and that it was a sort
[Part Third] [6383] of subterfuge to avail myself of it. But don't you think I deserve a
[Part Third] [6390] By every law of nature and sex a kiss was the only rejoinder that
[Part Third] [6405] "Yes," she said shortly, her face changing a little. "Though I
[Part Third] [6414] authorities are not all the world. You can get to be a student in
[Part Third] [6424] a parish priest, should learn.
[Part Third] [6429] redeeming characteristics there came promptly a note, which she must
[Part Third] [6454] Meanwhile a middle-aged man was dreaming a dream of great beauty
[Part Third] [6457] Lumsdon near Christminster, to undertake a large boys' school in his
[Part Third] [6458] native town of Shaston, which stood on a hill sixty miles to the
[Part Third] [6461] A glance at the place and its accessories was almost enough to reveal
[Part Third] [6465] was now bent on making and saving money for a practical purpose--that
[Part Third] [6466] of keeping a wife, who, if she chose, might conduct one of the girls'
[Part Third] [6477] labour for a national school-master but a subject, that, after his
[Part Third] [6478] abandonment of the university scheme, had interested him as being a
[Part Third] [6484] A resumption of this investigation was the outward and apparent hobby
[Part Third] [6487] himself up in his house with a few urns, tiles, and mosaics he had
[Part Third] [6491] Thus on a particular evening in the month, when it had grown quite
[Part Third] [6493] from his window at a salient angle of the hill-top town over infinite
[Part Third] [6494] miles of valley westward, announced as by words a place and person
[Part Third] [6500] undistracted research--more than creditable to a man who had had no
[Part Third] [6503] not history. They were historic notes, written in a bold womanly
[Part Third] [6507] He presently took from a drawer a carefully tied bundle of letters,
[Part Third] [6516] and other experiences of a training school, forgotten doubtless by
[Part Third] [6518] them--quite a recent note--the young woman said that she had received
[Part Third] [6525] gathered from a woman's gratitude that the man who loved her had not
[Part Third] [6529] he drew a photograph of Sue as a child, long before he had known her,
[Part Third] [6530] standing under trellis-work with a little basket in her hand. There
[Part Third] [6531] was another of her as a young woman, her dark eyes and hair making a
[Part Third] [6534] a duplicate of the one she had given Jude, and would have given to
[Part Third] [6538] devotion, of a young man of eighteen.
[Part Third] [6541] rendered more old-fashioned by his style of shaving. A certain
[Part Third] [6543] inherent wish to do rightly by all. His speech was a little slow,
[Part Third] [6545] His greying hair was curly, and radiated from a point in the middle
[Part Third] [6547] wore spectacles when reading at night. It was almost certainly a
[Part Third] [6548] renunciation forced upon him by his academic purpose, rather than a
[Part Third] [6564] warning or mitigation as he stood at the door expecting in a few
[Part Third] [6568] Sue had, in fact, never written a line to her suitor on the subject,
[Part Third] [6569] although it was fourteen days old. A short reflection told him that
[Part Third] [6570] this proved nothing, a natural delicacy being as ample a reason for
[Part Third] [6575] direction of a burning indignation against the training school
[Part Third] [6577] cathedral, just now in a direly dismantled state by reason of
[Part Third] [6578] the repairs. He sat down on a block of freestone, regardless of
[Part Third] [6586] younger man's mind a curious dislike to think of the elder, to meet
[Part Third] [6599] spot where Phillotson had been sitting. Jude offered him a piece of
[Part Third] [6600] sackcloth for a cushion, and told him it was dangerous to sit on the
[Part Third] [6614] "Well"--Jude for a moment felt an unprincipled and fiendish wish to
[Part Third] [6620] action did not respond for a moment to his animal instinct; and what
[Part Third] [6628] Phillotson trembled, and his naturally pale face acquired a
[Part Third] [6633] were I in a position to marry her, or someone, and settle down,
[Part Third] [6639] happened?" asked Phillotson, with the firmness of a man who felt that
[Part Third] [6640] a sharp smart now was better than a long agony of suspense hereafter.
[Part Third] [6656] could not comfortably merge in a friendly discussion of their recent
[Part Third] [6688] you, Jude. When you are gone away I seem such a coldhearted--"
[Part Third] [6708] of his with Arabella; which in a few months had ceased to be a
[Part Third] [6711] "I can't quite tell you here in the street," he went on with a gloomy
[Part Third] [6717] the stalls and areas empty. He would have preferred a more congenial
[Part Third] [6718] spot, but, as usually happens, in place of a romantic field or solemn
[Part Third] [6719] aisle for his tale, it was told while they walked up and down over a
[Part Third] [6723] information that he had married a wife some years earlier, and that
[Part Third] [6747] damnable how things are!" she said, stamping her foot in a nervous
[Part Third] [6754] It was a question which in the circumstances Sue did not choose to
[Part Third] [6757] "I suppose she--your wife--is--a very pretty woman, even if she's
[Part Third] [6768] her trembling lip and lumpy throat belying her irony. "You, such a
[Part Third] [6771] Now if I had done such a thing it would have been different, and not
[Part Third] [6772] remarkable, for I at least don't regard marriage as a sacrament.
[Part Third] [6775] "Sue, you are terribly cutting when you like to be--a perfect
[Part Third] [6780] of a heart-hurt woman: "Ah--you should have told me before you gave
[Part Third] [6798] They moved on a dozen paces, and she showed herself recovered. It
[Part Third] [6801] generous on reflection, despite a previous exercise of those narrow
[Part Third] [6805] "How should I be so foolish? I do blame you a little bit for not
[Part Third] [6813] wife, even if there had been no obstacle," said Sue, with a gentle
[Part Third] [6816] else. As to our going on together as we were going, in a sort of
[Part Third] [6821] of strong attachment where desire plays, at least, only a secondary
[Part Third] [6843] assumption: that a union between them, had such been possible, would
[Part Third] [6844] have meant a terrible intensification of unfitness--two bitters in
[Part Third] [6864] Tidings from Sue a day or two after passed across Jude like a
[Part Third] [6868] were of a somewhat serious kind by catching sight of the
[Part Third] [6894] back to his work and laughed the usual bitter laugh of a man so
[Part Third] [6906] her decision; but Sue was not a very practical or calculating person;
[Part Third] [6907] and he was compelled to think that a pique at having his secret
[Part Third] [6915] support her; but he could not write the requested good wishes for a
[Part Third] [6924] it a trouble? I have been looking at the marriage service in
[Part Third] [6925] the prayer-book, and it seems to me very humiliating that a
[Part Third] [6929] GIVES me to him, like a she-ass or she-goat, or any other
[Part Third] [6947] I don't see why you sign your letter in such a new and
[Part Third] [6948] terribly formal way? Surely you care a bit about me
[Part Third] [6954] What had jarred on him even more than the signature was a little
[Part Third] [6961] at any rate, for the schoolmaster sent him a line of warm thanks,
[Part Third] [6969] following Saturday, which would allow of a ten days' stay in the city
[Part Third] [6970] prior to the ceremony, sufficiently representing a nominal residence
[Part Third] [6975] should not lose a morning's work and pay, she said (if this were
[Part Third] [6981] She lived in the same house with him, but on a different floor, and
[Part Third] [6983] they took together, when Sue's manner was something like that of a
[Part Third] [6987] wedding, when Jude had given himself a holiday, Sue and her cousin
[Part Third] [6996] hands, looking into a futurity which seemed to be sketched out on the
[Part Third] [7005] that!" But he would not annoy her by such a cheap retort.
[Part Third] [7011] having done a wrong thing of this sort himself, he was aiding and
[Part Third] [7012] abetting the woman he loved in doing a like wrong thing, instead of
[Part Third] [7016] After breakfast they went out on an errand together moved by a mutual
[Part Third] [7020] times, she took his arm as they walked through the muddy street--a
[Part Third] [7022] corner they found themselves close to a grey perpendicular church
[Part Third] [7023] with a low-pitched roof--the church of St. Thomas.
[Part Third] [7038] a charwoman cleaning. Sue still held Jude's arm, almost as if she
[Part Third] [7040] but his thoughts of a penance in store for her were tempered by an
[Part Third] [7045] How a blow should fall, such as falls on men,
[Part Third] [7052] like a couple just married. The too suggestive incident, entirely
[Part Third] [7074] oughtn't! I see it now. My curiosity to hunt up a new sensation
[Part Third] [7089] "We have been doing such a funny thing!" said she, smiling candidly.
[Part Third] [7103] her lover not to be a long time she departed with the schoolmaster.
[Part Third] [7106] for the ceremony. Phillotson's hair was brushed to a painful
[Part Third] [7109] thoughtful, and altogether a man of whom it was not unsafe to predict
[Part Third] [7110] that he would make a kind and considerate husband. That he adored
[Part Third] [7114] Although the distance was so short he had hired a fly from the Red
[Part Third] [7117] Jude was getting to be recognized as a citizen; and the couple were
[Part Third] [7118] judged to be some relations of his from a distance, nobody supposing
[Part Third] [7119] Sue to have been a recent pupil at the training school.
[Part Third] [7123] tulle, which he threw over her bonnet and all, as a veil.
[Part Third] [7125] "It looks so odd over a bonnet," she said. "I'll take the bonnet
[Part Third] [7135] ask him to do it--a cruelty possibly to herself as well as to him?
[Part Third] [7150] Phillotson seemed not to notice, to be surrounded by a mist which
[Part Third] [7155] The meal at his lodging was a very simple affair, and at two o'clock
[Part Third] [7157] and there was a frightened light in her eyes. Could it be that Sue
[Part Third] [7182] whether it were that she had miserably wished to tell him of a love
[Part Third] [7190] But in the cathedral he seemed to hear a voice behind him, and to
[Part Third] [7205] would he have compounded for the denial of her as a sweetheart and
[Part Third] [7206] wife by having her live thus as a fellow-lodger and friend, even on
[Part Third] [7218] made themselves visible as faint nebulae only. It was a new
[Part Third] [7221] her. But the consolation of regarding them as a continuation of
[Part Third] [7236] coincided with a letter from his former employer at Christminster,
[Part Third] [7237] who offered him permanent work of a good class if he would come back.
[Part Third] [7238] The letters were almost a relief to him. He started to visit Aunt
[Part Third] [7260] scrolls, a hog-hair brush in her hand, her girlish figure had
[Part Third] [7285] proposed that they should adjourn to a bar and drink together.
[Part Third] [7289] Latin--now a popular tavern with a spacious and inviting entrance,
[Part Third] [7290] which gave admittance to a bar that had been entirely renovated and
[Part Third] [7294] stylish a place now for him to feel at home in unless he was drunker
[Part Third] [7305] and the row of little silvered taps inside, dripping into a pewter
[Part Third] [7315] received, which emitted a ting-ting every time a coin was put in.
[Part Third] [7318] direct glance, though a reflection of her back in the glass behind
[Part Third] [7320] listlessly, when she turned her face for a moment to the glass to set
[Part Third] [7326] side. Abby was in a black gown, with white linen cuffs and a broad
[Part Third] [7328] accentuated by a bunch of daffodils that she wore on her left bosom.
[Part Third] [7330] water over a spirit-lamp, whose blue flame sent a steam from the top,
[Part Third] [7333] a handsome, dissipated young fellow, possibly an undergraduate, who
[Part Third] [7336] "Oh, Mr. Cockman, now! How can you tell such a tale to me in my
[Part Third] [7339] the retort provoked a laugh at his expense.
[Part Third] [7341] "Come!" said he, "I'll have a curaao; and a light, please."
[Part Third] [7344] a match held it to his cigarette with ministering archness while he
[Part Third] [7349] "Not a sound," said she.
[Part Third] [7366] fingers and held them. There was a slight struggle and titter, and
[Part Third] [7369] Jude had looked on with the eye of a dazed philosopher. It was
[Part Third] [7376] after a brief thought he entered it, and went forward to the counter.
[Part Third] [7377] Arabella did not recognize him for a moment. Then their glances met.
[Part Third] [7378] She started; till a humorous impudence sparkled in her eyes, and she
[Part Third] [7387] afternoon? A Scotch and soda? Come, anything that the house will
[Part Third] [7390] "Thanks, Arabella," said Jude without a smile. "But I don't want
[Part Third] [7392] presence there had destroyed at a stroke his momentary taste for
[Part Third] [7396] "That's a pity, now you could get it for nothing."
[Part Third] [7412] "Oh, I had my reasons... Then you are not a don yet?"
[Part Third] [7416] "Not even a reverend?"
[Part Third] [7420] "Nor so much as a rather reverend dissenting gentleman?"
[Part Third] [7432] "So you pass as having a living husband," he continued.
[Part Third] [7434] "Yes. I thought it might be awkward if I called myself a widow, as I
[Part Third] [7437] "True. I am known here a little."
[Part Third] [7444] "I don't care to go into them," she replied evasively. "I make a
[Part Third] [7447] Here a chappie with no chin, and a moustache like a lady's eyebrow,
[Part Third] [7448] came and asked for a curiously compounded drink, and Arabella was
[Part Third] [7450] stepping back a moment. "Can't you wait till nine? Say yes, and
[Part Third] [7451] don't be a fool. I can get off duty two hours sooner than usual, if
[Part Third] [7459] "But I must know a thing or two; and, as you say, we can't talk here.
[Part Third] [7463] street. Here was a rude flounce into the pellucid sentimentality of
[Part Third] [7468] and that was to play a straightforward part, the law being the law,
[Part Third] [7474] Alfredston as he had promised. At every thought of this a pang
[Part Third] [7477] unauthorized love. Passing the evening, therefore, in a desultory
[Part Third] [7481] resounding from the Great Bell of Cardinal College, a coincidence
[Part Third] [7484] faces of the barmaidens had risen in colour, each having a pink
[Part Third] [7488] in a lackadaisical tone, without reserve.
[Part Third] [7497] go out and wait a minute, as it is best we should not be seen going
[Part Third] [7498] together." She drew a couple of liqueur glasses of brandy; and
[Part Third] [7504] In a few minutes she came, in a thick jacket and a hat with a black
[Part Third] [7506] myself in by a latch-key at any time. What arrangement do you want
[Part Third] [7516] "I'll go over with you to-morrow morning. I think I could get a day
[Part Third] [7520] who had no more sympathy than a tigress with his relations or him,
[Part Third] [7540] half-hour's journey to Aldbrickham, where they entered a third-rate
[Part Third] [7541] inn near the station in time for a late supper.
[Part Third] [7549] to Christminster, the only two occupants of a compartment in a
[Part Third] [7550] third-class railway-carriage. Having, like Jude, made rather a
[Part Third] [7551] hasty toilet to catch the train, Arabella looked a little frowsy,
[Part Third] [7555] she was due at the bar. They walked in silence a little way out of
[Part Third] [7576] to keep it a secret. I'll tell you now if you promise? As an honest
[Part Third] [7584] "Whenever I met him out for a walk, he used to say that he was much
[Part Third] [7621] "I won't go blaming you. I could say a good deal; but perhaps it
[Part Third] [7631] get a train back to Alfredston, he strolled mechanically into the
[Part Third] [7639] Arabella's midnight contiguity, a sense of degradation at his revived
[Part Third] [7641] which set upon his motionless face a look as of one accurst. If he
[Part Third] [7648] like a vision before him--her look bodeful and anxious as in a dream,
[Part Third] [7653] uneven accents not far from a sob. Then she flushed as she observed
[Part Third] [7661] Aunt was a trifle better. I sat up with her, and as you did not come
[Part Third] [7667] a student, and had forgotten your promise to me that you never would
[Part Third] [7670] "And you came to hunt me up, and deliver me, like a good angel!"
[Part Third] [7689] had, living largely in vivid imaginings, so ethereal a creature
[Part Third] [7694] to him, was so uncarnate as to seem at times impossible as a human
[Part Third] [7699] "You'll go back with me?" he said. "There's a train just now. I
[Part Third] [7719] such a hurry that we have not said a word about it!"
[Part Third] [7731] a relief to tell her of his meeting with an unexpected one. But the
[Part Third] [7742] though he had with another. It was now as if he carried a bright
[Part Third] [7755] almost a stranger to her now would have made it irksome to both.
[Part Third] [7765] "You ought to be a happy wife."
[Part Third] [7774] that they might have been taken from a list of model speeches in "The
[Part Third] [7777] he was convinced that she was unhappy, although she had not been a
[Part Third] [7779] of a relative whom she had hardly known in her life, proved nothing;
[Part Third] [7784] She reproached him by a glance.
[Part Third] [7791] Sue put on a look of being offended, till she answered, "Nor has
[Part Third] [7798] quarrelled, he turned to look at it. A squalid family lived there
[Part Third] [7813] "Don't think that, Jude, for a moment, even though you may have said
[Part Third] [7814] it to sting me! He's as good to me as a man can be, and gives me
[Part Third] [7825] taking Phillotson as a husband, Sue felt that she had done what she
[Part Third] [7829] the village--the field wherein Jude had received a thrashing from
[Part Third] [7837] in blankets, and turning upon them a countenance like that of
[Part Third] [7839] said in a hollow voice:
[Part Third] [7843] ordered to do this and that by a feller that don't know half as well
[Part Third] [7859] "I can mind the man very well. A very civil, honourable liver; but
[Part Third] [7886] married would have come so far to see a sick old crone like her.
[Part Third] [7887] In the afternoon Sue prepared to depart, Jude hiring a neighbour to
[Part Third] [7900] I don't think you are in a good mood."
[Part Third] [7913] he had returned from Marygreen to Melchester there arrived a letter
[Part Third] [7914] from Arabella. The sight of it revived a stronger feeling of
[Part Third] [7918] The letter, he perceived, bore a London postmark instead of the
[Part Third] [7919] Christminster one. Arabella informed him that a few days after their
[Part Third] [7923] and had taken a free, fully-licensed public, in Lambeth, where he
[Part Third] [7925] to be a very thriving one, the house being situated in an excellent,
[Part Third] [7926] densely populated, gin-drinking neighbourhood, and already doing a
[Part Third] [7927] trade of 200 a month, which could be easily doubled.
[Part Third] [7930] tell him where she was, and as they had only parted in a slight tiff,
[Part Third] [7936] he would not turn upon her, a weak woman, and inform against her,
[Part Third] [7937] and bring her to ruin now that she had a chance of improving her
[Part Third] [7938] circumstances and leading a genteel life.
[Part Third] [7946] recommendation of being only a dozen and a half miles from his Sue's
[Part Third] [7947] now permanent residence. At first he felt that this nearness was a
[Part Third] [7949] was too sad a place to bear, while the proximity of Shaston to
[Part Third] [7950] Melchester might afford him the glory of worsting the Enemy in a
[Part Third] [7963] instinctively a worse thing--even though she had not told him of her
[Part Third] [7967] he perceived with despondency that, taken all round, he was a man of
[Part Third] [7968] too many passions to make a good clergyman; the utmost he could hope
[Part Third] [7969] for was that in a life of constant internal warfare between flesh and
[Part Third] [7972] As a hobby, auxiliary to his readings in Divinity, he developed his
[Part Third] [7974] part-singing from notation with some accuracy. A mile or two from
[Part Third] [7975] Melchester there was a restored village church, to which Jude had
[Part Third] [7978] was that he joined the choir as a bass voice.
[Part Third] [7981] week. One evening about Easter the choir met for practice, and a new
[Part Third] [7982] hymn which Jude had heard of as being by a Wessex composer was to be
[Part Third] [7983] tried and prepared for the following week. It turned out to be a
[Part Third] [7992] "Yes," said the organist. "He is a local man. He is a professional
[Part Third] [7996] plays in the large church there, and has a surpliced choir. He comes
[Part Third] [8002] on its composer, and the reasons why he composed it. What a man of
[Part Third] [8007] Jude. If there were any person in the world to choose as a
[Part Third] [8014] was only by a series of crooked railways that he could get to the
[Part Third] [8018] They told him it was a red brick building some little way further on.
[Part Third] [8026] Jude hastened on, and soon had the pleasure of observing a man in a
[Part Third] [8027] black coat and a black slouched felt hat no considerable distance
[Part Third] [8029] "A hungry soul in pursuit of a full soul!" he said. "I must speak
[Part Third] [8037] scant ceremony, and might be quite a perfect adviser in a case in
[Part Third] [8043] The musician came to him in a moment, and being respectably dressed,
[Part Third] [8044] good-looking, and frank in manner, Jude obtained a favourable
[Part Third] [8045] reception. He was nevertheless conscious that there would be a
[Part Third] [8048] "I have been singing in the choir of a little church near
[Part Third] [8052] "I did--a year or so ago."
[Part Third] [8059] I haven't made a five-pound note out of any of them yet. These
[Part Third] [8061] work, such as mine is, for almost less than I should have to pay a
[Part Third] [8062] person for making a fair manuscript copy of the score. The one you
[Part Third] [8064] and so it has got to be sung a little. But music is a poor staff to
[Part Third] [8071] shape, ornamentally margined with a red line, in which were set forth
[Part Third] [8077] They talked a little longer, but constrainedly, for when the musician
[Part Third] [8078] found that Jude was a poor man his manner changed from what it had
[Part Third] [8086] his simplicity in taking such a journey. But no sooner did he reach
[Part Third] [8087] his Melchester lodging than he found awaiting him a letter which had
[Part Third] [8088] arrived that morning a few minutes after he had left the house. It
[Part Third] [8089] was a contrite little note from Sue, in which she said, with sweet
[Part Third] [8100] intervention of Providence to keep him away from temptation. But a
[Part Third] [8109] Since he wrote a little over-ardently, Sue, as her manner was,
[Part Third] [8114] works at the trifling expense of a stoppage of pay, and went.
[Part Fourth] [8130] is no better than a Pharisee."--J. MILTON.
[Part Fourth] [8142] (as Drayton sang it), was, and is, in itself the city of a dream.
[Part Fourth] [8147] into a pensive melancholy, which the stimulating atmosphere and
[Part Fourth] [8149] burial-place of a king and a queen, of abbots and abbesses, saints
[Part Fourth] [8152] Shaston a renown which made it the resort of pilgrims from every part
[Part Fourth] [8153] of Europe, and enabled it to maintain a reputation extending far
[Part Fourth] [8156] the destruction of the enormous abbey the whole place collapsed in a
[Part Fourth] [8158] that held them, and not a stone is now left to tell where they lie.
[Part Fourth] [8166] It has a unique position on the summit of a steep and imposing scarp,
[Part Fourth] [8170] Wessex--being as sudden a surprise to the unexpectant traveller's
[Part Fourth] [8171] eyes as the medicinal air is to his lungs. Impossible to a railway,
[Part Fourth] [8173] it is hardly accessible to these but by a sort of isthmus on the
[Part Fourth] [8182] retailing their contents at the price of a halfpenny a bucketful.
[Part Fourth] [8185] facts, namely, that the chief graveyard slopes up as steeply as a
[Part Fourth] [8187] through a curious period of corruption, conventual and domestic, gave
[Part Fourth] [8189] to man, such as the world afforded not elsewhere. It was a place
[Part Fourth] [8195] altogether from the public worship of God; a necessity which they
[Part Fourth] [8198] without a sense of humour.
[Part Fourth] [8200] There was another peculiarity--this a modern one--which Shaston
[Part Fourth] [8208] caravans bearing names not local, as if surprised by a change in the
[Part Fourth] [8215] afternoon, and entering on the summit of the